Coming to terms

Chapter 2

It's been a week since I admit to myself that I love my best friend. It's not going so well. I've been staying up everyday thinking about what to do. Should I tell her? Should I keep it to myself and hope my feelings go away? I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.
Maybe I'll just distance myself from her. That might be the best idea since she obviously doesn't feel the same way about me and I can't stand being just friends. I can't take being with her without her knowing. I can't be around her and not be able to touch and hold her. I can't talk to her without wanting to kiss her lips. I- snap out of it,Jasmine. I need to stop thinking about this so much.

I walked over to the bookshelf by my bunk bed and scanned the shelves for a book I'm in the mood to read. My eyes landed on "Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe" and I smiled to myself. This is one of my favorite books and I've read it multiple times. I grabbed the book off my shelf and climbed back up to my bed and started reading. About 35 minutes later, Azalea walked in.

She tossed her bag next to our beds and collapsed on the floor. "I'm exhausted," she said.
"What were you doing?" I asked her while still reading my book.
"I was challenged."
"Challenged? To do what?"
"Know that little marathon the school held today?"
I sat up in my bed and put my book down. I looked at her in disbelief. "No way"
She grinned and looked up at me. "Yes way"
"You ran in the marathon?? But...you haven't even been training."
"I'm on the baseball team," she replied,like it was no big deal. "I train every day"
I think I just fell in love with her a little more,if that's even possible.
"Well...what did you place?"
She got up and walked over to our bed and smiled. "Second place."
I threw my stuffed wolf at her. "SECOND PLACE?! HOW?!!"
She started laughing and picked up Monty and threw him back at me.
"I just ran," she said,still laughing.
"You just...ran?"
She shrugged and I just laid back in my bed.
Can she get more amazing?

I pulled my blanket over my head and closed my eyes. I could feel Azalea climbing onto the bed next to me and my heart beat faster.
"This is the sixth time you've read this book"
"I like it," I mumbled from under my blankets.
"Well I like books too,but I don't read each one six times."

Suddenly my blankets were being moved around and Azalea got under with me.

"Oh god" I thought to myself.

My heart was racing so fast and my breaths became heavier. I prayed she couldn't notice.
I looked over at her.
"What are you doing?"
"Does jasmine not want to snuggle?" She made a pouty face and laughed.
Then Azalea did something I didn't expect,she laid down on top of me.
My eyes nearly popped out of my head.

"Azalea! What are your doing?!"
"Relax," she said laughing. "What's the problem?"
I stuttered. "I'm just..I'm just uncomfortable is all."
She stared.
"Since when have you been uncomfortable with me?"
I didn't know what to say. Azalea and I have always been so comfortable with each other. We always messed around and touched each other,that's just the kind of relationship we have,but my feelings have changed that. Things I used to do before,I can't do anymore. She's laying on top of me and of course I want that but she doesn't want it the way I do.

Wait. What the hell am I doing? I have the girl I love laying on top of me? Why the heck am I complaining? I am such an idiot.

I wrapped my arms around her and "played" along. She smiled.

"Would you like some music,my dear?"

She laughed and nodded. "Oh yes please,my love."

There were butterflies in my stomach,but she didn't need to know that. I grabbed my remote and pointed it to my tv and put Spotify on shuffle play.

The first song that played was "Heaven Forbid" by The Fray.

"Oh I love this song," she said,smiling happily.

"Me too," I whispered.

I looked up at her and she looked down at me. Would it be a bad idea to just lean up and kiss her right then and there?

Probably.

She yawned and laid her head on my chest.

"I'm exhausted," she said,mid-yawn.

"So I've heard."

She mumbled something but I couldn't hear what it was.

"What was that?"

No response.

"Azalea?"

I looked down at her eyes and they were closed. She had fallen asleep. At that moment,I couldn't decide whether I was the luckiest person in the world or the complete opposite.

My crush was sleeping on top of me,lucky.
She has no idea how I feel about her,unlucky.

I closed my eyes and decided to sleep  with her. I wanted to stay like this forever.

My arms stayed wrapped around her waist and I started to drift off.

So that's how my day ended,sleeping with the most beautiful girl in the world.