Bad nights

drinking

I was staying the night at a friend's house and it had been a long day for me. I was tired of dealing with everyone's bullshit, and I wanted a way out.

my friends house always had alcohol in it, and I used that to my advantage.

her brother Ryan and my other friends brother Benjamin were drinking too. I slipped down stairs after my friends fell asleep to join them. I had known then it was a bad idea, but it seemed like fun.

with the first shot we took, Ryan but something else into Benjamin's drink. he had slipped about $20 worth of coke in his drink.

Ben was very worried at first and didn't like it, But soon calmed down.

we sat talking for a long time, I drank enough at that time to feel dizzy, but I still had my head.

I remember we had gone outside, I think it was to see a coyote, but we stayed out there for a while. I kept bringing myself closer to Ben, hoping he would notice it.

when we went back inside, I tried a finger lick of the coke too. it didn't do much for me. we did more shots and continued talking, it was fun to just listen to them and watch Ben stumble from the numbness of the coke.

later we went out back, it was Mabey 3am. I sat next to Ben and by now, I knew I was drunk cuz I couldn't follow the conversation anymore. I remember putting me hand on Ben's knee and making circles with my fingers.

I think I fell asleep for a bit cuz next thing I knew, we were talking about sex.