Six Feet UnderGround

The Scars of Elizabeth

 After a boring day, of sitting in the living room pretty much the whole day listening to Laura and Dad fighting and then later making up in the bedroom, the only thing merely exciting that happened is Laura threw a glass bottle at me and now I have a scratch on my shoulder I have to cover up. Now, that Casper is back in my life the day wasn't that horrible we talked almost the whole day, just like old days. I'm starting to get used to him around but still the thought of Cassandra just brings me down right away. Its just the point of all the things we did or didn't that I can never get back. Even through everything I did to help her nothing worked she just... jumped. That's enough I need to get over this sadness, she was one of the best people in my life that's something that should give me happiness, and I can hope she's out of pain. I'm actually trying to start a scrapbook of her so I can have her all in one book. I'm not sure how Casper is it's not something I exactly want to get too personal with him, I do remember their relationship was still a little rocky before she died. They were just starting to get better. I should ask him soon so it doesn't seem like I don't care because I want to be there for him. One thing I can remember in specific before I was forced to move was Casper kind of blamed himself. That was one of the things that actually hurt me as well. I didn't want to lose anyone else even if it was selfish, I just couldn't bare the feeling of loss already. He seems better and I've already heard some people want to get closer to him. Wink, Wink. But one thing is for sure, I dont want him getting hurt by anyone even myself.

I feel like an older sister but who says being a little protective of a friend is a bad thing. Well Knowing school is tomorrow and I have to deal with this cast I might as well get some sleep.