Harry Styles's Lost Princess- Book 1 (A One Direction Fanfic)

Breakthrough and Plans- Chapter 14

Breakthrough and Plans- Chapter 14

Ariel's POV:

Our week off ended 2 days ago and we were immediately flown off to our next venue. During our week off the lads also filmed for their Live While We're Young music video. Let me just say it’s quite random from the little snippets I saw. Sadly since I was also filming my music video, I wasn't able to see their video and they weren't able to see mine. So I guess you can say that we will both be in for a surprise

The guy that came out in my music video reminded me a bit about Haz because he also had curly hair and similar personalities. This guy is blond while Haz has brown hair. No I am not dating him. That's the last of my needs right now. I don't need someone else fussing over me when I already have most of the crew doing that.

I mean sure I don't smile, laugh, or talk, but that doesn't mean I'm going to kill myself. If someone kills me, then I will be happy because it wasn't me. So answering your question, yes I still want to die. Why? Well because everything is currently affecting me more than usual. The lies, the hate, and the fears are so bad that sometimes I find myself shaking in fear and crying silently. That led to me not talking altogether. I haven't had any interviews, so I haven't had a need to worry about talking.

Currently we are in our next venue rehearsing. The lads just finished so it’s my turn. I'm very grateful for everything they've done to try to make me talk. To really silly remarks and hugging me to death. I love them. One particular moment was this morning before we came down to the venue...

Flashback

I finished changing in the restroom. I was wearing a pair of black short shorts and a pink off the shoulder perfectly fitted sequined top. I paired it with my pink converse. Today I decided to risk looking in the mirror. I cringed at what I saw. My eyes held a hollow broken look compared to its usual glow and sparkle. I looked more pale than usual and my hair looked drab. Usually my face glowed with happiness, but now nothing. I honestly looked like a hollow shell. I didn't realize I was shaking until I stretched my hand towards the mirror.

I quickly let it drop to my side and took a deep breath. I quickly styled my hair into a Dutch braid and did my makeup. Mascara and the top layer of black liquid eyeliner is now part of my usual makeup, and I did just that. I cringed one more time at my ugly useless self and quickly exited the restroom. Inside the hotel room I found Li, Ni, Malik, and Tommo sitting down on Haz's bed. I wonder where he went to... They smiled when they noticed that I actually tried this morning, but then Louis quickly pouted once again.

He said, "Ariel please speak to us. Don't stay quiet. We miss your random outbursts and sarcastic comments! Well at least I do."

I managed to blink in understanding, but before I could do anything else, Zayn said, “Yeah we miss you talking! Even though we didn't talk much, but I enjoyed seeing you and Harry argue or even just sassing Louis back."

Niall said, "Please! I miss you singing while you made us food. Oh and I also miss your cooking. I mean Harry's cooking is good and all, but I prefer yours over his."

Liam said, "Niall, mate, you're lucky Harry isn't around or he would've been offended. A, you know you can trust me. Please. You can trust us. Don't let this depression get to you. We are all here to help you overcome it. Don't stay silent. We know that your silence screams more than your actual cries of help. Please. You were never this quiet when Dani and I talked to you. Talk to us."

I felt my eyes well up with tears. These lads are seriously the best. I love them. I can't believe I didn't realize how my silence would affect them. Just before I could respond to any way to any of them, I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist. Haz.

Haz said, "Ary if you don't tell us what's wrong then we can't help you. Please communicate with us."

I felt really bad that I couldn't talk to any of them. It's not that I didn't try. I did, but I just opened my mouth but no sound would come out of it. I couldn't even smile. I tried, but I just felt stabbing pains whenever I even lifted my lips up a bit.

The lads just sighed when I didn't say anything, but Haz didn't let go of me. I felt something wet drop on top of my hair and I looked up. Haz was crying. I couldn't help, but cry a bit myself. It's because of me that he's crying. All I do is cause pain to everyone. I guess the haters are right. That's all I'm useful for.

End of Flashback

As I walked on stage, this memory replayed over in my mind. I decided to scroll around on Twitter for a bit until the band is ready to start for my part of rehearsals. What a big mistake I did. I was standing in front of the microphone and still scrolling while the lads sat down in the audience.

I found a tweet, and I felt my eyes start to water at the tweet. It read:

@aryhater: @rockary hello talentless & worthless bitch. ;) hope u die tonight or soon anyways. Cya ugly slut

I dropped my phone. It bounced off stage and landed on the floor. Luckily the Hello Kitty phone protector saved it from cracking. (A/N: the phone protector is like one of those fat silicon ones that hav a rhino or a penguin) Haz gave me that cover for my 18th birthday and I'm grateful too or else my old phone case and phone would've been goners.