Do You Trust Me? (DISCONTINUED)

Have a First Hand Experience of My Many Flaws (Author's Note)

  Hey.
  I'm, um..I'm at a loss for words, sorry.
  I just feel like I need to get something off my chest that I've been meaning to spout for a few days.
  I'm going to quote someone here. These words are not my own, purely something I believe in that someone else phrased.
  To people who are thinking about pursuing their dreams, but are too scared of failure:
  When you start out doing something, you are, more often than not, all alone in your pursuits. You're not going to have anyone who believes in you.
  Now, some people have no problem just going Hell for leather at what they want to do. That's great.
(This is where the quoting stops, at this point it's just mind barf)
  I'm not like that. I happen to be a very neurotic thinker. As in, I can't stop thinking about things. I get scolded for not thinking before I speak a lot, but the truth is, I think way too much about it. It's not that I don't think about other people's feelings before speaking, it's just that I lack compassion for those who are unkind. I value brutal honesty over kindness, regardless of who I am speaking to. If the president looks ugly in whatever he's wearing, I'll say it. I don't really see the point in keeping my mouth shut. That's probably why people perceive me as blunt and rude, because it's not that I don't think about what I'm saying, I just simply do not care about your feelings. Emotions are overrated in a social system where people are praised for not having feelings.
  In my defense, I don't ever insult anyone for the sake of insulting them. I would much rather have someone call me a bitch to my face than behind my back, because at least saying it to me directly proved someone is not a coward. I'd rather be considered heartless than spineless.
Call that an unemotional thing of someone like me to say, but my thoughts at any given time are my own.
  So, if I asked you what zodiac sign I were, would you guess Virgo? The sign known for being nit-picky and perfectionistic, analytical and ruthless?
  What about Scorpio? Blatantly rude and dark, even morbid.
  I'm a Leo, the "Queen" of the zodiac. Passionate, generous, and warm. Ruling, flippant, egotistical.
  Maybe I am arrogant and narcissistic, so be it.
  For the longest time, I was absolutely terrified of being the villain of my own story.
  Now I really couldn't care less.
Finally, in an act of being self-aware of my stress-fueled moodiness, I like to classify my moods into three parts.
  Dan Howell during an existential crisis,
  Dan Howell normally,
  And Phil Lester ^_^
  Right now I'm at Existential Crisis Dan. I chucked pillows at my walls and cursed in Japanese and Swedish the other night.
  To be honest, I was going to go on a rant about believing in yourself. But you know? Fuck that, man. I'd rather rant about my emotional flaws for ten minutes.
  I still love you guys. That's not going to change. Unless you, like, murder someone. That's not really socially acceptable, bad people.
Also, happy birthday, Phil! :D
  Ok I think ranting helped I love u huggles bai!~
  Also I found KissAnime so I finished Season 1 of One Punch Man (sadness ;-;) and I'm watching Attack on Titan (MIKASAAAA!) and Sword Art Online (Kirito is really fun to say. Also Silicia is the cutest thing ever)
  Ok NOW bye!                                                                                                    ~Light