Over the next 6 months Rebecca & Jordan were having some difficulties and when rebecca heard a rumor she decided to break up with Jordan, a few days passed and they decided to get back together but of course this didn't last long and they broke up again. It killed Rebecca, every day she wanted to try and make things right, she missed Jordan more than anything. He was on her Mind 24/7 and the thoughts and memories kept her awake at 4am, for weeks she was crying until someone different came along. He opened Rebeccas heart and stuck all of her broken pieces back together. He was a bad influence but she didn't care, He kept her mind off of Jordan and seemed to love her more than anyone had, Kyles voice was gentle and calm. A few simple words could cheer Rebecca up and she really thought he was the one. 3 months Passed and He has sadly passed away, Once again Rebeccas depression was at its height and she went back to Jordan, he slowly crept back into her mind. She couldn't escape it, as she lay on the bathroom floor she realised he was the air she struggled to breathe and she wasn't even the dirt under his fucking finger nails. Jordan didn't care, he was like every other guy, he pretended to care just because he felt sorry for her. Everything he has ever said to her was BULLSHIT. As Rebecca starts to unbox some pills her mind wonders back to december, Back to the memories she spent with Jordan, she remembers his smile that lit up her whole world. Rebecca hated what she had become, she hated the fact that she had let Jordan go :( She missed his touch, His sweet smile, the compliments he would give her, She missed it all.....He had moved on and there was nothing she could do except hide the tears and carry on acting as if everything was okay. If she could she would go back to December 20th and change her mind. Many More months passed and now its January 2016 and she still hurting, she still loves him. Everytime her phone lights up she really hopes its him, It never is, its got to the point now that if he wants to talk to her he would message her first, she will no longer be messaging him first.
Rebecca used to think one day she'd tell the story of them, How they met and the sparks flew instantly, and people would say, "They're the lucky ones." they stand in a crowded room and they dont speak, shes dying to know is it killing him like it's killing her,
she doesn't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of them looks a lot like a tragedy now.
How did they even end up this way? Why are were thye pretending this is nothing?
Rebecca wanted to tell jordan she missed him, she just didn't know how. It was almost like a contest, Of who can act like they care less.
Rebecca is with a guy Now, Riley, And he treats her amazingly. He throws his head back laughing like a little kid, she think it's strange that he thinks she funny 'cause he never did. She'd been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end, He says hes never met a girl who had as many Green Day CD's as she did.
