Now You're Gone

Chapter 1: I Promise

It's been two years since the incident. Since my boyfriend's death. I can't get over it, I miss him so much.

His fans were worried about him, the others didn't care.

He meant the world to me.

But he committed suicide...

His friend, Dan has been helping me through it.

It's been two years but I just can't get over him.

I miss you, Phil...

"Hey guys." I greeted, facing the camera. "Today I would like to talk about a more serious subject than I normally do."

I took a deep breath...

"Suicide."

I looked down at my wrists before looking back up. The deep red cuts, just like Phil used to do. I became depressed myself after he died.

"I know it's different to the videos I normally post but... I need to talk about it.

As you know that 2 years ago my boyfriend, Phil, committed suicide. I just need to talk a little about it."

I sighed. I couldn't do it. It was too upsetting.

I turned off the camera and Dan walked in.

"Are you okay, Kiyara?" He asked.

"Y-Yeah." I stuttered.

"You don't sound like it." He came and sat on the bed next to me.

"It's just... Phil." Tears escaped my eyes.

"He's in a better place now. He's watching you from above." I could hear Dan starting to cry. He was Phil's best friend after all.

"I know but I miss him, it's all my fault." I sighed.

"It's not your fault, Kiyara. It's no ones fault." He reassured.

"Yeah, I guess you're right..." There was no point in arguing.

"Everything will be okay."

"Promise?"

"I promise." He hugged me tightly.