Dreamt About Him

school

When I got to school I go straight to my first class and sat at the back of the room, I'm not a study obsessed and I'm not lazy in studying either, but I do keep my grades up, I never put effort on studying but I still got 90 above in avarage and I never get an A in seatworks, quizess, and especially in exams, I don't wanna stress myself to much,
When my 2 classes are done and it was time for our break I go ahead to the Dog house they always got the best foods there and I stay there eating, reading and listening to music, when a song that reminds me of my past cames up, i thought that it's almost a year since I transfer to this new scho of mine and I surely am curious on what might be happening right now to my old bestfriends 'that I thought was my bestfriends' if I'm still with them right now, what will I feel?, What I might be doing right now?'probably be the awkward me as usual when I'm with them (but they never knew that I felt like that) , and probably I'll just be standing right infront of them not talking but listening then be very corny later but as usual they'll just ignore me' well ayway I pushed all those thoughts away before my bestfriend Gwen came sliding down the seat just infront of me then went on eating my fries, I got up from my seat and hug her as what I usually do when I see my friends 'okay I admit that I'm a hugger and I Love Warm Hugs hahaha'
"Gwen!! Hahaha
You alright? You look a little gloomy "
I know she's not alright I can just tell it
And I also think I also know what this is about

Paul..
Gwen had been having a crush on him almost a year now,but Paul doesn't feel the same way, and I've been hearing rumors about him liking Bunny 'that is my friend aswell.. ' Gwen told me that she's hurt when Paul had a crush on Kasy but it was alright cause she knows she'll never have a chance on him but now that she'd know he likes bunny it hurts her even more that she was hurt with Kasy, because Bunny is 'our' friend,it makes us feel like she's a traitor now that she's starting to like him aswell.. Wait...Gwen doesn't know it yet...Does she... 'I don't want her to get hurt plss. I wish.. ' I didn't got the chance to continue what I was wishing before she said what she has to say
"Bunny's starting to like Paul.. "
..Too late
I didn't reply for a moment I can see that behind that smile of hers is that hurt, that hurt she's feeling in the inside
Then I finally asked
"How did you find out? Who told you?"
I asked slowly in a curious tone
"Tony,Tony was the one who told me, then sooner after that Bunny told me aswell and she said that she was sorry for it, that she can't help liking him back"
I can't feel anything but guilt, gulit that is bothering me in the inside, guilt that I didn't tell her, guilt thag I was the first one to know about it, about Bunny, I'm having the urge to tell her but I keep on stopping myself.. I don't know why..I just feel so bothered to tell her that I know.. Urghh tony did yoy have too??  But there's no way we can reverse it now.. She has the rights to know anyway
"Bunny also told me that she'll just stay away from Paul just for me, because she doesn't want me to get hurt just because of her, but I told her not to, that I'm gonna be fine,that it's alright"
I didn't said anything back I just went back on eating my burger wishing my guilt will be pushed down as my chewed burger goes..