I'll Show You

ch.4

"Camz!!! I swear to god if h don't get off me rn I'm litterly gonna kill you!" I say as Camila is just squazing me to death. "But Lo I love you" she says and then buries her face in the crook of my neck. "Ugh! Fine but if u don't get off me I can't order us pizza"
Once I said those words Camila was off me and handing me my phone so I can order us the food. This is are typical weekend. Either I sleep over Camila's house or she sleeps over mine. We always do the same thing eat, watch movies, cuddle, talk, eat, then go to sleep. Its been this way since 4th grade n now we're in 10th and nothing has change. Besides my feelings. I knew I always loved Camila but not like this. When I was little all I wanted to do was play with Camila but now all I want to do is kiss Camila. And the more time I spend with her the stronger my feelings are. I want to tell her. I want to show her. I want to love her. I just want to be hers. But if I tell her then it'll break our friendship. I just can't risk losing her. But right now I just have to take what she's giving me. I told her the pizza will be her in 30 mins and ecscused myself to the restroom. Just thinking about not having Camila made me emotional n I needed to breathe for a little bit. But once I closed the door the tears fell. I couldn't stop them. Everything negative was coming out. But I didn't want Camila to hear as I weep so I turned on the water and spread water on my face. My eyes were a little puffy and red but barely noticeable. Or so I thought. Once I came out n Camila looked at me she ran over to me and gave me a tight hug. As we stood there hugging she whispers in my ear "what's wrong. Lo? Please tell me." I couldn't hold it back any longer I needed to tell her." Camila I......"