I'm lost without you...

ｉ'ｍ ａ ｓｃｒｅｗ ｕｐ

Over the time when you like talk or text with your crush do you just ever think about when will this "thing" between the two of you ever end? I felt like that with this one crush I had, I felt like I screwed it all up. I had no chance in hell getting all the pieces back and putting it back together. And now seeing my crush now being happy is horrible when you know that's not you. I felt like I had a huge bullet going through my heart, someone gripping my throat.... I wish I can just go back to time & fix everything....but no I'm just a huge fucking screw up. // well this actually happened to me twice & you know what? This fucking sucked and I wish I was smart enough to know the consequences but no I didn't cause in fucking reality I'm a screw up.