It's nice to know, you never cared
It's nice to know, I didn't matter
It's nice to know, it was all lies
It's nice to know, she means more than I did
It's nice to know, you never loved me
It's nice to know, I couldn't trust you
It's nice to know, it meant nothing
It's nice to know, she hates me
It's nice to know, you hooked up with her
It's nice to know, I wasn't worth it
It's nice to know, it was easy to move on from
It's nice to know, she tried to steal you away
It's nice to know, you talked to her during our relationship
It's nice to know, I couldn't see the signs
It's nice to know, it didn't hurt you
It's nice to know, she fucking lied to you
It's nice to know, you don't miss me
It's nice to know, I wasn't good enough
It's nice to know, it wasn't perfect
It's nice to know, she thinks I'm a whore
It's nice to know, you led your ex on before me
It's nice to know, I gave you everything
It's nice to know, it was mostly me
It's nice to know, she just wants you for sex
It's nice to know, you can't see it
It's nice to know, I can see her manipulation
It's nice to know, it isn't my place to tell
It's nice to know, she fucked four guys right before you
You said you loved me, before you walked away
I trusted you with everything
She never did a thing to me, but I know she'll hurt you
You said we'd still be friends
I said I couldn't have feelings for someone who does that
She pretends she's in love, flaunting it everywhere
You said you still cared
I gave you everything I had
She is going to break your heart
And if you run back to me
I know I said I wouldn't let you
But deep down I know
That I'm still in love with you...
~~A/N: I didn't intend for this to happen...it's just been bottling up and I wanted to get it out. I'll probably delete this later, IDK. It just makes me feel horrible...I've been regressing backwards and I know I'm supposed to move on and it's so pathetic that I can't, and everything inside me tells me to forget him and let go because let's face, it's not going to happen and I just want him to be happy, but I'm selfish and I can't. I want him to come knocking on my door in the middle of the night so I can chew him out like I never got to and finally tell him that yes I forgave him a long time ago and I'm sorry for everything and I just want to hold him tight and breathe him in once again...but I know it won't happen. I kept telling myself I couldn't have feelings for someone who pulls this shit, but slowly I admitted that I still loved him to myself, in my own fucked up way, but I wasn't in love with him. But no, I fucking am and I hate it because I'm also in love with someone else and I can't do anything right and can't get my fucking life together.
I'm sorry for that long note...I shouldn't be ranting here, but IDK where else to say it. I can't tell my friends, and I can't talk to anyone else about it.
Goodnight, I love you all
~TJ
