I didn't want to complain, but stating the obvious wasn't complaining. I was the least noticed member of Black Veil Brides. Andy was the lead singer, he was also notably hot, Ashley played bass, looked like a girl, and was known for his moves with the ladies. Jinxx played guitar AND violin, he was married to a hot woman, and CC, well CC was loud and boisterous, the life of the party. Then there's me. Normal, ordinary Jake. I play guitar. How exciting is that? Don't get me wrong, I loved being in Black Veil Brides, but sometimes I just wished I was noticed more. For example, the other guys couldn't walk around in the mall without getting noticed by a mob of fangirls. On the other hand, I could walk down the street with a line of people going to see our show, and I wouldn't get noticed. Was I really that invisible?
These were the thoughts that plagued my mind while being driven to some city in who-knows-where. CC was sleeping the day away per-usual. Andy was on the phone with Juliet, and Jinxx was Skyping Sammi. I was staring out the window, watching the barren scenery go by, occasionally I'd see a tumbleweed or if I was lucky, a scraggly bush.
"Yo, Jake!" Ashley popped up out of nowhere and took a seat in front of me. "Whassup?"
"Oh you know." I told Ashley, avoiding his eye by staring out the window. "Nothing."
"Well that's pretty boring."
"Yeah, I guess it is." We remained quiet for several minutes, both of us staring glumly out the window.
At first I didn't know what it was about Ashley that always made my stomach turn summersaults. Whenever he was around I would suddenly become self-conscious about what I was doing, as if he was staring at me. Then I realized that I had a crush on him. It had taken me so long to realize this because I had always figured I was straight, guess not. Ever since I'd come to terms with this, I couldn't look at Ashley in the eye, I was scared that he'd notice and call me out. Besides, I wasn't like he'd ever like me back. He was straight as an arrow. So I just kept my guard up whenever I was around him.
"Hey Jake?" Ashley's voice startled me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah?"
"Why haven't you dated anyone?"
"I guess I haven't met anyone I like." I said blantly, shrugging my shoulders.
"Well what if...what if someone liked you, but didn't tell you?"
I looked sideways at Ashley, What's he implying? Someone likes me? I thought. "Well, I would like to know" I told him. "If someone likes someone else and they never tell that person, then they might lose their chance at being really happy, and end up miserable when the person they like ends up with someone else."
"Oh...well, what if that someone was, oh I don't know...the same gender?"
I snapped my head and turned to him. "Why?" I said a bit forcefully.
Ashley looked taken back, he began to fiddle with his star necklace. "Just asking." Then looked up at me and gave me a small grin. "But I think I got my answer." With that, he stood up and walked to the back of the bus.
The conversation with Ashley had left me troubled. What did he mean by "I got my answer" and why did he ask me about someone of the same gender liking me? Sighing, I stood up from my place in front the window and walked to my bunk. I needed to get some sleep before the show tonight.
I had been having a wonderful dream, a dream that I now couldn't remember because I was rudely awakened by the forceful prodding of my side. I opened my eye. Ashley was standing in front of my bunk, poking me in the side while consistently whispering "Jake, Jake, Jake, Jake" I think you got the picture.
