Chapter Thirty-Three . . . Graduation
(Two months later . . .)
Kristine's POV
I tightened my jacket around me as the wind blew my hair to the side. I didn't want to but I looked down at the grave stone. I gently placed the red roses down and fell to my knees. My eyes filled with tears.
"Todays my graduation day. You're suppose to be here you know. To take care of me, take pictures with me, hold me, and tell me that you love me, but your life was taken away from me and now I guess I have to learn to be a mother all by myself without your help and that scares me." I wiped my tears away and sniffled. Trying to control the anger and sadness inside of me. "Sierra is getting so big and will be starting first grade next year. Austen is a little monster and terrorizes his sister any time he can, but you can tell he loves her. He's talking a little more now. Just small words but enough to know that he's getting big. I hate that he's growing up and he'll never get to know you. And oh we can't forget about little miss Faith. She's so . . . so . . . independent. At two months she wants to hold her own bottle, play with her brother and sister and now tries to sit up. Poor thing isn't strong enough though but she doesn't cry." I looked down at the leaves and gently touched them with my hand. "This isn't fair you know. Why am I the one alone and have to take care of everything. I just-" I stopped myself and took a deep breath. "I know what you would say. Kristine, why are you crying over me, huh? This is your special day. I'm dead what the hell can I do for you?" I laughed to myself know that is what would be said at this moment. "I can see you giving me those crazy eyes and shaking your head at me, but your right it is my special day and if I ruin my makeup I'm sure Jessica will literally kill me." I touched the gravestone gently. "I miss you, you know. Everyday." I took a deep breath and was about to say more when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up and found Carrie smiling sadly at me.
"I don't want to rush you or anything but we need to get to the school." I nodded and got up.
I looked at the gravestone one last time and let out a deep breath. "It's alright, if I'm late I'm sure Tyler will have my ass."
"Honey he's your fiancé and baby daddy he can have your ass any time." I laughed at her before gently kissing my hand and putting it on the grave stone. "I love you mom." I said and grabbed Carrie's hand and together we walked back to her car. Once inside she gave a sad smile.
"Are you okay, honey?" I smiled back at her showing her that I was okay.
"Yeah, I'm fine. It was nice talking to her. I haven't done it in awhile and it feels nice."
"I bet it was. She is your mother alive or dead, and even if she can't talk back to you she's always listening and she will be by your side today." I nodded agreeing with her, but inside I still wish my mother was physically here. I mean what daughter doesn't want there mother on her graduation day.
"Yeah I know. Anyway can we not talk about this right now. I mean it's graduation day yay!" She rolled her eyes.
"The day where we get to wear uncomfortable clothes and stand infront of people that we hated all through highschool." I nodded and started giggling. "What's funny?" She asked confused.
"I always thought that half of those people would end up knocked up in school and getting married at such a young age, but all this time it was me." Carrie cracked up and even snorted.
"Don't forget he's our teacher too." That time with both howled in laughter. It may not be funny to you, but with all that we've been through together it was the funniest thing I ever heard.
Once we calmed ourselves down we filled the car with a comfortable silence and I was the first to speak. "You know I appreciate everything you've done for me and the kids. I don't know where I would be with out you." She rolled her eyes at me jokingly but I could see the softness in her eyes.
