Adana:Things Have To Change

Got To Do Better

Montrel...

I really feel like shit ever since I forgot me and Adana's anniversary. She really loves me and all I do is fuck her over every time. I don't know why she stays with me , I put her through so much this past year. I cheated on her on her like three times and every time she worked through it with me. I treat her like she don't even exist sometimes and I hate to see her cry even though I'm the cause of it, most of the time. Truth is I don't how to love, my mom abandoned me and my twin when we were 12 years old. She was a drug addict and was never home and when she was shooting up drugs, me and my brother practically raised our selves anyway. My pops was from Puerto Rico, he was on vacation in Florida, and while he was here, he impregnated my mom and vanished without a trace. All I knew about him was that he was Puerto Rican and his first name was Ricardo.

I just push her away because i always think she's gonna leave like everybody else in my life. All I had in my life for a long time was Machai, we depended on each other. I really do love Adana but I just don't know how to show it, even after all these years.

Things have gotten really bad this year because my mom keeps contacting me wanting to get back into me and Machai's life. It's really eating me up because I haven't even told Machai about, and I really hate keeping shit from him,even though we're twins I'm overly protective because I'm the older twin by 8 minutes. I know it ain't a lot but he really don't need that in his life right now. When my mom leave he took it the hardest. I had to start hustling just to feed us. Eventually he got over it and started hustling too. I never really grieved or had any emotion about the situation, but now that I'm older I realized that it fucked me up mentally and emotionally.

I wanna make this whole thing up to Adana but I just don't know how to open up and tell her what's really going on.

I headed into the club to check on some things and make sure everything was running accordingly. Me and Machai owned one of the hottest clubs in the Atl, it was called B.E.D. Every day it was popping but on Friday every body was in there,even celebrities.

"What's up boss man" one of the bartenders said to me as I walked in. "Wassup Neil" I walked over as he was doing inventory before the club opened."Everything going good"? I asked. " Yeah,what about you, you look a little off" he said with a concerned look on his face."A lot of shit, just know that Neil", I sat down on one of the stools at the bar."Like what"? He said as he put one of the ciroc bottles on the shelf. " I forgot me and my girl anniversary". I put my head in my head and sighed."Man, I think you should just make it up to her with a surprise vacation and especially a apology." He said standing in front of me with a serious face and tone." I gotta do something, I don't wanna lose her, I gotta do better".

I left the club and was headed home to book tickets for my surprise vacation for Adana and I, I was thinking Puerto Rico, it was beautiful and romantic. I pulled into the drive way and seen Adana's car. I was prepared for the silent treatment that has been going on for two whole days.

I unlocked the door and walked in...

Adana was sitting on the stool in the kitchen at the counter eating her favorite ice cream, loaded brownie. She also had her computer so I assumed she was doing her homework, she's such a hard worker that's what makes her even more beautiful.

"Hey, bae". I walked up behind her. She didn't reply which was expected, so I went upstairs to book tickets for Thursday morning.

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Adana...

I was not speaking to Trel at all , I know it may seem childish but he really hurt my feelings. It's like he hates having someone to try and be there for him, if he keeps pushing me away he won't have to any more , because I'll just go.