"The blonde one"

Chapter 15

Songs for this chapter:

Clarity ~ Andy Lange (cover)

Never say never ~ The Fray

A thousand years ~ Christina Perri

Purpose ~ Justin Bieber
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Nicole |

Niall and I decided to meet after school. Thankfully we didn't have any classes together today, so I chose to avoid him until then.

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The school yard is empty, I'm not surprised, it's extremely cold today. Summer is almost over, in fact, it is over, you just don't want to admit it.

I hope Niall won't take much longer, I'm almost shaking in my thin summer jacket.

What if he doesn't show up?

The thought hadn't crossed my mind yet, but what if he ditched me?

He wouldn't do that, right?

Just when I'm about to call him, Niall comes walking out from school.

I stand up from the bench I currently sat on.

He looks up at me carefully when he comes closer, he got tears in his eyes.

Oh. Is it really that bad?

Before I know it, Niall is in front of me, holding my hands.

"Baby.." He says, his voice cracks.

He looks terrible. His eyes are red and puffy, probably from crying.

I can feel my eyes begin to tear myself.

What has he done?

"Niall.." I finally say. "What have you done?"

"Please, just hear me out before you say anything, okay?" He instructs.

I don't know what to do. What could he seriously have done? Cheated? No, Niall would never do that. Killed someone? The thought scares me.

I give him a quick nod.  He takes a step closer to me and inhales deeply.

"A few years ago, I used to live on parties, I've already told you that. Anyway, one night a girl came up to me and started to flirt with me, she just wanted to have sex though!"

I wrinkle my nose in disgust.

"So of course I fucked her.." I gasp when I hear his words. "I know, it's fucked up..but it's the person I was back then."

My heart sinks.

"Then after.. I left her completely naked in the room, I didn't wait for her, I just wanted to fuck her and then leave. When I walked down the hall I met my friend Jason who stepped inside the room the girl was in. She screamed but I didn't do anything."
He tells me, his voice is low.

I let go of his hands and take a step away from him. I look him in the eyes quickly. He's hurt. Tears are running down his cheeks.

"Did he..did he rape her?" My voice cracks.

He takes a step closer again and wipes my tears away under my eyes.

"No no, nothing like that."

I'm relieved.

"He just took pictures of her, naked! They were all over school a couple of days later. " He admits.

"Why didn't you help her? How heartless are you?!" I raise my voice at him. How could he do it? Poor girl.

"I did not even think about it, it wasn't my responsibility." He says a little too honest.

He tries to pull away a strain of my hair but I slap away his hand.

Niall gets the hint and takes a step back.

"You're disgusting, you're responsibility?! He could've raped her! " I yell.

I honestly don't know what to do.

I'm not sure if I can just forget about this. It will haunt me. Niall didn't give a crap about that girl, he would not have cared if she was raped. It's sick, it makes me sick.

"Baby.." He says after a while in silence. "Say something..please".

The tears haven't stopped yet, they just keep running down my face.

Maybe I overreacting. He didn't do this to me. Maybe I haven't anything to be mad about.

"I-I'm honestly speechless Niall."

The thought of Niall standing there on the party, knowing what's going on with the girl makes me blow up.

"In second thought, I'm not..how could you do that to a innocent girl?!"

Niall bites his lip, trying to keep the tears in. Suddenly he's just in front of me, holding my cheeks in his hands.

"Baby please, forgive me! I need you.." He admits, his voice at me ear.

"I need to think about this, I can't look at you without thinking horrible thoughts right now." A lump rises in my throat.

He inhales deeply. "Yeah yeah, do that. It's fine, just..call me when you've decided?"

I don't answer him, instead I just walk away from him. I have nothing to say to him at this moment. He knows what I feel.

I have no idea what I'm supposed to do now, if I'll be able to look at Niall again and feel the warm feeling I felt against him yesterday.

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Niall |

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

I fucked up, really bad.

Why did I even tell her?

Because honesty is the key in a relationship.

Well, I broke the key in our relationship.

I could see the disgust she felt towards me in her eyes when I told her about the girl.

Nic won't come back to me, I'm sure of it. I feel like I'm about to pass out. She won't come back to me!

I shouldn't have told her. Now
is everything ruined.

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"I don't know man, it's just all ruined now!" I complain.

I take a small sip from my beer before looking at Harry.

He sighs. "I'm sorry, but you knew that you had to tell her, you couldn't just continue your relationship without telling her".

He's right, I know he is. But why do I feel so bad then?

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