Crazy,Stupid Love♡

Chapter 8~ Hatred...

Today has been a roller coaster of emotions. First I start of as just an innocent student to then being put on record of snogging a boy's face off.
My phone goes off,my Twitter exploding with mentions to do with Jack and Finn Harries. I click on a link to see a picture of me and jack, the two of us making out. I see the all the comments that read.
@TheHarries_xoxox~ Ewww such a slut,she should go and die in a hole.

@Harries_Suggx~ What a fucking slag,she ain't even that pretty she should go commit suicide for all I care.

So many of these comments went off minute by minute. It seemed like the world had stopped and there was just loads of girls laughing and wishing for me to die. My heart rate had picked up speed rapidly and the air was getting thin. Everything seemed to close into me just leaving me sit there unable to move or say a word. Tears were streaming down my face and I couldn't stop. Why does this happen to me? Why do I have to break down in front of Joe? If he finds out I will be dead.

Yup. I knew it. Dead.

JOES POV
I was just replying to a few comments on my Twitter when all of a sudden I heard small whimpers coming from beside me. I looked up and instantly my heart shattered into a few pieces. Kayla's cheeks weren't stained red anymore, they were covered in black streaks and her eyes just looked beaten up and bruised from the smudges of mascara. Seeing her like this made me so upset. I didn't know what to do in situations like this, I was just standing a few inches away from her watching her cry like an idiot. I sighed loudly, enough to get her attention focuses on me. As soon as she looked up at me I could immediately notice the hurt in her eyes, all colour drained from her face. I couldn't move away from her. I needed to make conversation. It's not like I could just get out of the car on a busy road like this.
I was about to pluck up the courage and speak until Zoe had beat me to it. ffs.

*KAYLAS POV*
I should of just stopped having my panic attack and not to worry so many people. Caspar had no clue as he was sat at the front with my mum. The only people who was able to see me was Zoe and Joe. I knew that Joe wasn't very confident in dealing with other people's emotions,not saying he can't make people sad to happy but I'm not sure if he would be able to calm down my panic stress. The only person I knew who would be able to control it was Zoe.

Zoe had saw me in my panic and straight away she unplugged her seatbelt and sat right next to me, engulfing me in a tight squeeze. "It's okay,deep breath Kayla!" She said. She grabbed my hand and placed it on her neck/chest. "Follow my breathing rate and heart beat okay?" I smiled weakly at her and did what she suggested to me. Her heart beat was slow and she was breathing in and out heavily, I did the same and before long I was back to my normal self.
"Better?" She smiled.
"Yesss thanks so much zo!" I replied back retiring the smile.
"Np!" And with that she slid back to her original seat and clipped her seat belt in.

We was eventually parked up on the our driveway. As I climbed out first followed by Joe or Zoe we shared our goodbyes and went back into our own homes.

I run upstairs to my room and open up my MacBook, catching up on Zoë's blog post. Funnily enough it was to do with how to suffer with hatred and panic attacks which was handy due to what happened earlier in the car. As I finished reading the last sentence from the page my phone pinged of. Unknown number.
Unknown Number: Heyy just checking are you okay? J xx

Me: Hey who's this btw?K xx

Unknown Number: It's Jack xx

Me: Oh erm why wouldn't I be okay? X

Jack: Well with all the tweets about the picture of us, you know kissing xxx

Me: Oh yeah I'm fine idc about them rly X

Jack: Good don't let em get to ya k?

Me: Yh Ik they r just bully's X

Jack: Good :) xxx

Me: I'm so sorry but I've gtg and write an essay talk Ltr X

Jack: k, bye xxx

Me: Bye xx

I lied Ik that's bad but I was rly not in the mood to talk to anyone at all. I tweeted out to my followers saying.

@kayla_leexo~ Hey guys! Today has been an amazing first day except there if nothing between me and Jack it was a dare and I don't like how some people are sending me death threats. Hope you all had a great day. Nightttt xx

With that I opened the app dilveroo and ordered myself a Katsu curry from wagamamas! I typed in my debit card details and waited for it to arrive. Before long I had filled myself with wagamamas and was ready for bed. I ran myself a bath with one of my leftover bath bombs from Christmas which was Snow Angel. I turned the tv on in my bathroom. Yeah Ik I have a built in tv 😉 I decided to watch some of joes videos. I had started to believe that my feelings for Joe had came back and even when I tried avoiding them,I just knew I had and I couldn't escape them.  Before long I had been in the bath soaking for at least an hour and a half. I washed my hair and applied my night time skin care and then jumped into bed.
I check my messages and before long I feel asleep.

A/n~ Heyy,hi,hello,thanks so much for 170 reads it's literally so crazy! I know this chapter is quite short but I promise they will be longer in future.I wonder what will happen tomorrow? And if Joe actually saw her tweet about the dare? Please remember to vote and comment! I'll see you tomorrow byeeeee!♡