[PierceTheVeil] No Such Thing

Uno - Abigail

Abigail Fuentes’s Point of View

Rolling my eyes, I comb my fingers through my hair, swallowing the lump of sadness that has formed in my throat, knowing that whatever this is, this relationship is coming to an end. And at this point, I don’t really know if I care, or if I want to try to keep it going, try to keep him in my life, because I can’t even go out to lunch without him glued to his stupid phone. Every single person in the restaurant is giving me sympathetic glances and forced smiles as if they’ve been in the same position.

But, they probably haven’t and I don’t really care if they have. I don’t need their pity and I most definitely don’t want their pity. In the beginning of this, Austin was everything I wanted in a boyfriend – caring, sweet, romantic, remembered everything, chivalrous, funny, attentive, and he always made time to see me. Now, I don’t even know who I'm dating because this guy sitting in front of me with his eyes stuck on the screen of his phone isn't the one I agreed to be in a relationship with.

“So, um, as I was saying, my boss was all excited about the new design. She told me that I might be up for the promotion next month.” Once again, I'm talking to no one, and it sucks. It’s the most annoying thing ever, because I'm actually really excited about this and he doesn’t give two shits. If it doesn’t have anything to do with him these days, he could care less about it. All I want is for him to be excited for me, to tell me good job or that he’s happy for me, but I can’t even get a nod in acknowledgement. Not even a fucking nod in my general direction from my damn boyfriend!

I really want to hit him, probably in the face, because if we stay together I want kids eventually and kicking him in the private part just isn’t the smart thing to do. If I ever told Mike that this is the way Austin was acting on a date, Mike would encourage me to beat the crap out of him, and if I politely declined because I would get arrested for assault, Mike would step up and do the honors himself. While, Vic, on the other hand, would simply list reasons as to why I should end things with Austin and how I can do so much better than someone who doesn’t pay attention to me. They are my brothers, though, and they’re biased.

This was never like this. In the beginning, the two of us were inseparable. It was fun. He would always invite me to their concerts at home, or at least close by, and I used to go out and have fun with him and his friends. Now, it’s like having me tag along is a deadly option, something he would never even bother to think of doing. I miss him, I really do, and somewhere deep down I think, I mean, maybe Austin will return to his old self. Maybe, just maybe, if I wait a little longer, Austin will realize he changed into something I don’t like and he’ll go back to the way he was before.

It all happened after Tal cheated on his fiance. I mean, who the hell does that? Who the hell would propose to someone if you’re just going to cheat on her? He used to keep me separate from that life, from his life with Tal and those guys. But now, that’s Austin’s life, too, and I’m all too wrapped up in how obnoxious they all are. Anyway, so Tal cheated on his fiance, and something happened and she found out. So, Tal needed his partying friends back. And Austin was way too eager to help him out.

Austin began partying a lot. And with partying comes drinking. With drinking comes everything else that I really didn’t want to happen in this relationship. It’s actually depressing, how much I don’t want to be in this relationship anymore. But, I like him, I do like Austin. I like parts of him. I like how he’s so compassionate and good looking and fun to be around. I just, I wish that he was more like that instead of how he is these days. Stop being mean to your fans, dude, come on, they love you, who cares if they talk about how I’m your girlfriend. Is it really that bad that people know I’m his girlfriend? Am I embarrassing?

People already know who I am. For crying out loud, I’m Vic and Mike’s sister. I’m a Fuentes.

Austin doesn’t even look up, I don’t think he even hears me actually. Sadness courses through my veins, because this sucks, this hurts. I’m up for a huge promotion and my boyfriend doesn’t even care. He can’t take his eyes off of his phone long enough to even look me in the eyes to let me know that he cares about what I said. There’s no way that he didn’t hear me. The restaurant isn’t crowded and it’s not loud in here. All I want is for him to be proud of me the way I am of him. It’s not that hard to ask. I’m always his supporter, and it would be nice to have a boyfriend who was my supporter.

The guys always ask why I’m with him. They know that he doesn’t treat me as well as I should be treated. They don’t know everything. Like how I’m pretty sure he’s cheated on me before, recently. I just, I don’t want to be alone. It’s scary, to think about being alone. And it sucks thinking about not being good enough to hold his attention.

“Huh, babe? Sorry, did you say something?” His brown eyes, they hold no sincerity. He doesn’t care that he wasn’t listening to me. Austin, come on, what happened to you?

Shaking my head, I let out a soft sigh. I have to get used to this, because this is what I get. Austin, he’s a great guy. He really is. And it’s better than being alone. “No, I didn’t say anything.”