A Short Romance [Completed]

Fate

"I have something...I want to tell you..." he said across from me. We both were sitting at a table in a fancy restaurant. The lights were glimmering and there were faint orchestra playing in the background.

I smiled and asked him, "What is it?"

"I...I...fell in love with a woman...." he said nervously. He was fidgeting. I've never seen him like this before.

"Are you joking with me Sebastian?" I smiled and asked him since he loves to play jokes on me.

"No...I am serious" he said and looked straight at me.

What? What? What? I...I thought that everything was going well.....We've...We've been together for almost 6 years now!

"And...I've been wanting to tell you that I-" he continued.

"It's alright! I understand!" I cut him off. Tears were brimming at my eyes they were threatening to fall down. Something seems to be stuck in my throat. I felt like my heart had been shattered to pieces. Memories of our times together flashed through my mind. All those time we've spent together, how could he...he...

"Alice...? Are you alright...?" he asked.

I looked at his face. I love that face of his. I love his warm smile. The way he talks, the way he walked, his back and everything about him. I love his hair. Tears started to fall from my eyes. I tried to hold it in but they kept falling.

"Alice....?" he asked full of worry.

That is just so like him. He is just nice. He is a really nice person. I know that he didn't mean to hurt me. I mean...I understand...it's just like how the way I fell for him. You know...it's unexpected, that's what love is.

But it still hurts...It hurts alot. I did not know that it could hurt this much. I love him. He was the first person that I fell in love with. He was the first person that taught me what love is. My tears ran nonstop. I must look like a mess.

I looked at him and he seems to be waiting for my reply. But I can't seem to stop the tears. I quickly wiped them from my face and tried to smile at him but they kept falling.

Why! Why?! Why? Why? Can't I control this? I didn't know it would hurt this much. "I'm...I..I'm okay" I was finally able to say to him but the tears were still falling.

"I...I understand" I said wiping my tears and holding it back. I looked at him and smiled in between cries and said, "I k..now w-hat you mean. I mean...I've been in..in.. that situation. So...I...I understand. You...you don't ha...have to feel so guilt....guilty" tears fell from my eyes. I quickly wiped it off.

I swallowed down another knot. "I...I will wi..wish y..you and her hap...happiness..." I said to him in a shaky voice. I didn't want to stay another minute there with him. I didn't want to make a scene. I didn't want to make him look bad because he is not bad.

I love him and I will try to understand. Because when you love someone, you would want the best for them in happiness. I hope him happiness with her.

"If you will excuse me ...I'll get going" I told him holding in the big knot at the end of my throat. I pushed back my chair and quickly got up.

"Wait Alice!" he called. But I didn't want to turn back, I didn't want him to look at me. I didn't know it would hurt this much. It's like someone had grabbed your heart and stabbed it multiple times.

I- I would miss him dearly. I will not be able to touch or hold him after this, and continued to wipe the tears from my face.

"Sir is everything alright?" I heard the voice of a waiter asking him. But everything around me sounded like muffled noises.

I walked out of the restaurant and it was raining. What perfect weather, I thought sarcastically. The cold rain falling down and soaking onto my hair and clothes. I walked blindly in the rain as tears keeps falling from my eyes.

{--------------------------- Words in Italics are considered as flashback --------------------------------}

"Here, you forgot this" he raises a rose towards me and smiled. "You might...think that I'm weird and a bit of a creep. But I've been watching you and I want you to know that you are beautiful" he holds onto the rose in his hand waiting for me to accept it.

I smiled, "I...I...I've also been watching you" I told him and blushed all the way from my cheeks to my toes. I accepted the rose from him and his smile grew brighter.

I won't be able to see him anymore.... I remember the time we met, it felt just like yesterday. If I could turn back to those times I would. I would spend more time by his side. I guess this is what if felt like for a heart to break.

I...I still remember the first time I saw him.

Who is that boy? I thought. Why do I keep seeing him? For some reason I always caught him at the corner of my eyes. Oh well. It must have been just some weird coincidences that happens.

A couple of days later.

Hmm. I haven't seen that boy at all. I guess it's just coincidences like I said. Oh well end of class. I need to go to my locker and grab my books before going home.

I walked out of my class and he walked right out of his class at the same time. His class was just right across from mine this whole time! We stood there looking at each other for a second. People were walking out from our classes and we both moved and walked our separate ways. Hmm...that was weird. Alice, you're just thinking too much, it's just your imagination.

Everyday after that day I would look for him everywhere I go. He would be on my mind every moment when I'm talking with my friends. I would notice him wherever. I can't seem to shake him out from my mind. When I'm in classes his face would float through my head. I wouldn't be able to concentrate unless I really focused.

After a few weeks. I finally came into turn with myself. Yes, this is just a crush. It's just like any other crushes I have. Nothing to worry myself over. But sometimes when I see him with other girls I would feel jealous....

So weird. I've never talked with him before nor do I even know his name. Why am I feeling this way? Nothing. I shouldn't care about it. It's just a crush.

Later, I found out that he is a senior.

Oh well. I guess, this is meant to be. After he graduated, I won't see him again. It doesn't even really matter, it's only a crush. It's not that big of a deal even if I don't know his name. Yep. I should keep it this way. It's only a crush.

Before I know it. The year passes by like flying colors. He graduated and I didn't see him around the school anymore. Great. I guess this is meant to be. I thought to myself with satisfaction. I guess, I made the right choice.

At the beginning of my junior year I saw him again. I saw him at the store. Wow, what a big coincidence.

I can't look at him. Thump thump thump my heart started to race. What am I supposed to do? Just don't look at him and you'll be fine. Alright, alright you can do this Alice. Stop it heart! Why are you still pounding? I can't think! What to do? What should I do?

I held my breath and walked past him. Phew.....I thought to myself. Oh why should I feel relieved? Alice you are such a coward! Why can't you just face him properly? I don't know okay! I don't know. I just can't think straight when I see him. He makes me feel weird. It's like I'm not myself. But you should at least still look at him properly. You've become such a coward that you can't even look at him now.

Oh stop it! I know, I scolded myself. I know that back then I just stared at him... but I don't know why I can't do it now. It's just that... I'm scared.

I'm not quite sure why I'm scared either.

But I really can't do this. I can't do it. I can't lose myself to feelings that will control me. But most of all I'm scared that he might notice. Why should I be scared of that? I can't answer that question either.