I walked back to our cabin in silence and kicked the rocks at my feet. I heard kids running around. I looked up and saw all my cousins playing outside and the adults were on the porch.
"Hey maybe, can you come here" said my mom. All their eyes were on me. "Your aunt, Grace, told us about jack." Already tears were streaming down my cheeks. I walked past them and into the house. I went straight towards my room. My room looked the same like how it did five years ago. My posters of Jonas Brothers were all still on my wall, my vanity had pictures taped to it, mostly of Nick Jonas. My bed caught me as I fell, so exhausted from the emotional day that I had. My mind was spinning and I couldn't think straight, I was an emotional wreck. I've liked Jack for years, ever since I first saw him. I can't believe he's gone...Just like that. Nothing will ever be the same.
A few hours had come and gone, I finally gained the will power to get out of bed and socialize. I walked down the steps and went outside and sat on the porch next to my mom.
"I'm sorry Maybeline..." She played with my hair.
I shrugged.
"Hey mom, would it be okay if I went to Lydias house for dinner?" I asked looking at her sadly.
"Of course Maybe." I got up and hugged her.
I walked down to the lake and sat down. I stared at the sky remembering all the fun times Jason, Jack and I had together. All the trouble we caused. Good times. I don't know what I would've done without those two. I stood up walked along the shoreline picking up and throwing rocks.
"Maybe!" a familiar voice yelled. I turned around and saw Jason's smiling face. He walked up to me and hugged me tightly. "Hey" I replied smiling a half-hearted smile.
"How are you?" he asked taking my hand in his. "I've felt better." I sighed. "What's wrong Maybe?" he questioned concerned.
"I'm just thinking about Jack." I replied.
"Oh. Maybe it's going to be okay. We'll get through this together." he said tightening his grip on my hand. The rest of the walk was silent and it was getting awkward with him just holding my hand. I felt like this was Jack. This was how me and Jack should have been. I'll never get that chance with Jack now, it feels so wrong to do this with Jason.... but then it feels so right at the same time.
We finally arrived to Jason's cabin and I released my hand from his. He walked up to the door and held it open for me. I walked in and went towards the kitchen.
"Hi Lydia." I said to Jason's mom as she made us dinner.
"Hey Maybeline. How you holding up?' she smiled softly.
"I'm okay." I sighed. "My hand still hurts." I said pointing to my right hand. "It'll probably hurt for a few hours, hun." She laughed. "Greeeeat" I sighed.
Jason and I walked into the den and sat down on one of the couches. "Hey maybe? Do you wanna watch Monsters Inc.?" He said looking at me. My eyes lit up. "Omg! Yes!" I jumped ontop of Jason. He laughed and I got off of him so he could put it in.
We turned off the lights and grabbed blankets and pillows and threw them onto the floor. Whenever we watched Monsters inc we'd always make a fort while their parents slept. We would just lay there talking and goofing around. We always had the best of times together. I was cuddled against Jason his arm wrapped around my waist. We talked about memories we remembered with each other. We talked about this one memory where we had more friends over and they dared Jason and I to kiss. We started laughing at how naive we were back then and how the kiss meant nothing and probably never will. Jokingly Jason asked if we should test it again. I laughed "Seriously?" Jason nodded "Yeah I'm serious... it's just to try it." I looked at him wide eyed and said " Sure. Um if you're up to it.
"He leaned in and his lips gently brushed mine. His lips so soft, I never imagined a kiss so gentle yet passionate. My lips moved with his, and for once I felt okay. I wanted more. I wanted more of him. His mom walked in and started coughing. "Ahem. Um dinners ready, but it looks like you guys are heading straight towards dessert." his mom blushed.
"Oh my god mom get out! That kiss meant nothing, seriously!" he said and he stormed out angrily. Him Saying that was probably the most painful thing ever.
"Whoops, I thought that was funny. Well come on than, time for dinner."
she said gestured towards the kitchen.
I followed Lydia to the the table with my head down, wondering where Jason went too.
I sat down and she served me food, it looked really good, but I didn't exactly feel like eating.. I sat there in silence.
A few minutes later, Jason sat down at the table and started eating giving me only a few glances. I almost started to cry so I quickly finished my food and said I needed to go home. "Maybe, do you want Jason to walk you home? It's kinda dark." she said. "No...It's fine.." I began to cry. "Maybe...Wait. Let me walk you home." Jason got out of his chair. "No. It's fine. I'll talk to you tomorrow." I ran out the door and all the way to the cabin.
I opened the door a closed it softly, everyone was asleep. I tip toed to my bedroom and collapsed onto my bed. I was exhausted, but I was to tired to sleep.
