Entry 4:
I decided not to go into school today, I had a slight cold but that wasn't the reason. You see I was meeting up with Tami, Alex and Jason. I woke up at 1pm to a text from Tami saying meet us at the park at 4pm. This was good I had 3hours to get ready I texted Jason to come to mine at 4 so we could walk together. I jumped in the shower and washed my hair, it was kinda sad most my hair dye came out (Casey's hair colour at the moment is dark red and black dip dye). When I got out the shower I quickly dried my hair and shoved on a band shirt (Bring me the horizon) and black shorts. I did my eye liner and grabbed my money and phone. I stumbled out the door and hugged Jason ''hey babe.'' ''Hi honey.'' I smiled. We took a short cut through the woods, I was a little scared but Jason was with me so I knew I'd be fine.
We got to the park and I rang up Tami asking where she was ''we're up at the top of the park.'' ''Tami are you kidding me it's to hot to walk up there.'' ''Come on Casey we're not walking down.'' It took a while but me and Jason got to the top of the park. When we got there all I could see was Tami and Alex kissing, well I say kissing more like eating each other. Me and Jason sat by a tree, and cuddled up. I looked down the park. ''Tami is that Aaron?'' She took a break from eating Alex and looked ''yeah I think it is.'' ''I'm gonna go say hi, stay here babe.'' I walked down to the small group and quickly shoved on Jason's long sleeve jacket. ''Hi Aaron.'' ''Casey? Hey. What are you doing here.'' ''Just hanging with friends, what are you doing here.'' ''Oh same.'' ''You almost never come out?'' ''Oh, I usually come here you probably don't see me though.'' Me and Aaron had a laugh for a while ''okay I have to go now I've been down here way to long.'' ''Yep, I guess I need to hang with my friends to, do you mind going to the shop with me for a sec?'' ''Yeah sure.''
The moment we walked around the corner, Aaron looking around. Lent in and kissed me. I didn't pull back because I didn't know what was happening, I pushed him back. ''Aaron what are you doing?'' ''I don't know, I just...'' After that he ran off, I felt terrible. I ran after him ''AARON WAIT!'' He turned around and looked at me. ''Look I know you don't feel the same way, but there's something you need to know about Jason..'' ''What?!?!'' ''Although he didn't get Katie pregnant, he did have sex with her.'' I paused, no? How could he? I looked at Aaron. Oh god he's telling the truth. ''Are you serious?'' Aaron hugged me ''yes, I'm sorry I was the one to tell you.'' I pushed him back ''NO!'' I ran up to where Tami, Alex and Jason were. ''Welcome back honey.'' I walked up to him and slapped him. ''HOW COULD YOU?!?!'' ''How could I what?'' ''FUCK THAT WHORE, AND DON'T DENY IT AARON TOLD ME!'' ''Look honey I'm sorry.'' ''DON'T JUST DON'T, I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR FACE EVER AGAIN!''
I ran to the bus stop. I got on the first bus I saw, Jason was still chasing me. When I got home I ran up to my room and I cried. How could he? He kept texting me, I threw my phone to the wall. The back came off and a small razor fell out. I stared at it. I grabbed it and slashed it across my wrist. I pushed it deeper and deeper, until I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. I wiped the blood from my wrist and pulled down my sleeve. ''Diner's ready.'' ''I'm not FUCKING hungry.'' She walked off. Thank god. I carried on making slashes all around my body. Finally all my anger and sadness was out, in the form of cuts all up my arms, legs and stomach.
