Calum's sister>>Luke Hemmings love story

chapter 17

Hey penguins its Thursday and i decided i should update because i feel a bit down and writing really helps sorry if it ends up coming out crappy and i am very sorry if this confusing i am going to be putting everyone back in the fanfic soon i promise.

Carol's POV

I woke up to a pillow hitting my face.

"Go away" i mumbled into the pillow under my head and covered my head with the covers.

"But mommy i wanna pway wif you." I heard my little princess say.

"Ok darling, what is my little princess doing here?" i asked her

"I WANNA SEE UNCLE ASHEE" she shouted excitedly.

"So you didn't want to see mommy?" i asked her and she just looked at me and pouted

"Aww baby girl don't cry i know you wanted to she me too."

"Mommy daddy is sad and it makes me sad" my little princess said and with that i stood up and told the boys to watch crystal while i went "out"

**15 mins later**

I walked through the door and was tackled by 4 guys giving me hugs, and this is my dad included so the 4 guys are Calum, Ashton, Mikey, and my dad.

"My little baby i missed you, what have you been up to?" my dad said, hugging me super tightly.

"Daddy your squeezing the baby." I said laughing a bit.

"Oh I'm sorry darling" He said while chuckling slightly.

"Calum can I talk to you and my dad?" I asked somewhat scared.

"If it has to do with the baby's father we know who it is he came by earlier." he said sounding pissed.

"Why are you mad?"

"I'm mad because he's just going to leave and you deserve better than that!"

" DAMN IT CALUM I KNOW HE'S GOING TO LEAVE BUT I JUST WANT TO HAVE AT LEAST THIS LITTLE BIT OF TIME THAT I CAN BE WITH HIM I AT LEAST WANT HIM TO BE AT THE BIRTH AND IF HE STILL DECIDES TO LEAVE THEN SO BE IT LET HIM BECAUSE THEN HE SHOWS THAT HE DOESN'T REALLY CARE FOR ME AND THAT HE WILL NOT WANT TO BE IN THIS CHILDS LIFE!!" I said with tears starting to well up ready to fall, that's when i started thinking

What if he does leave...what if he stops talking to me...

If i keep this baby and it looks like him then its just going to remind me of him and i cant live with that..."what if i give the baby up for adoption" that last part i said out loud and my dad just looked at me like he was about to cry.

"Darling are you really thinking about giving the baby up for adoption?" My dad asked starting to cry.

"Yes I am.." i replied with saddness in my voice.

"Carol please don't give this baby up I know that you are going to be so upset about it in the end, please don't do this Carol; if you do this then-"I cut calum off

"THEN WHAT YOUR GOING TO STOP CALLING ME YOUR SISTER; ARE YOU GOING TO GIVE ME THIS HUGE LECTURE ON HOW I'M A DISSAPOINTMENT TO YOU BECAUSE LETS FACE IT I AM A DISSAPOINTMENT AND YOU JUST DONT WANT TO ADMIT IT TO ME OR YOURSELF BUT I'VE ALREADY COME TO TERMS WITH IT BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL NEVER BE A GOOD ENOUGH SISTER AND I WILL NEVER REALLY BE YOUR SISTER EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE THE SAME MOM YOU JUST SEE ME AS A LITTLE GIRL THAT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AS YOU AND YOU WILL NEVER REALLY TREAT ME AS A REAL SISTER AND I MAY BE THE ONLY ONE THAT SEES IT BUT YOU KNOW THAT ITS TRUE!!" I shouted with tears streaming down my face like a water fall.