13

Goodbye.

It was the summer of a very distant year,

when we were merely 13.

I told you I that I loved you, and your reply was a blush and quick turn away

"We're only 13."

Is what you would say

and you told me that I'm foolish, but I knew that

you loved me.

I could see it in your eyes.

All those nights at summer camp, when we'd lay under the stars, mesmerized.

And you were afraid to love me, because neither of us knew what that was

Some bottled up emotions, that didn't have a definition.

Some raging emotion, not to be over shadowed by devotion

I fell in love with your slightly insecure smile, your beautiful brown head of hair, and your loving, ecstatic personality. 

Everything about you, made me love you.

Your flaws were there to make or break you 

And they definitely made you.

I knew that I could treat you right, if only you let me try

I know we were only 13, but we couldn't let that stop things.

I felt the love for you burning in my heart.

I felt the love from you in every time we touched,

every time we kissed but acted like we didn't like it.

And those days when we'd run together,

Hand in hand

Through the fields with the blooming bright daisies.

I never wanted it to end,

when you'd look back at me and smile

As I chased you for what seemed like miles.

And we had fun.

Then when night fell,

We'd say our good byes.

As you had to go to your cabin, and I to mine.

And we'd cross our hearts and hope to die

To, promise that we'd never leave each other's side

And in the night,

while I lay in that creaky old bunk bed

inside my dusty wooden cabin,
I'd be there

dreaming of you.

Thinking about us. About the future.

Will she still love me? Will I still love her?

Oh and I'd lay there for hours.

Hours on end thinking of how you brought color into my life

Kind of like a flower that brightens up the room.

That one special flower, that sits peacefully in its own vase.

And each morning we'd meet up.
Under the apple tree,

where it smelled of honeysuckle and sunflower seeds.

We'd give each other a strong, firm hug

and you'd kiss me on my cheek

and I'd kiss you on yours.

Life was simple for us,

We were only 13.

When we were small and nimble.
Simple because we didn't know the pain love could cause

or the damage that it could ensue.
All we knew is "I love you."

And as I know sat by your side,

our aged hands, clasped on to each other's, entwined.

You lay in that firm white bed,

Very slow and gentle,

you turned your head.

And looked me deeply in the eyes

Your gaze had me mesmerized,

you were as beautiful as ever.

And your thin, soft lips parted ways,

soon they began to say-
"I promise...

that I'll never leave your side."

And the life drained from your eyes.

And I began to weep, and cry

As the beep of the machine, gave out that defiant ring.

And, I sat there,

with my head lying on your lifeless chest.

Thinking about how life used to be.

You and me.

Oh, how I wish we could I go back to those days.

Where we'd sing and dance and run and play.

Those good old days,

When we were only 13.