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by allforlams

by allforlams

(A/N there are two songs that go with this chapter. The first one is Together by The xx & the second one is Discoloration by Golden Dawn. I find that it makes the story better if you listen to it in that order but you do you. Thank you! Enjoy.)

Troyes P.O.V.
It's 2:45 and I'm leaving in 45 minutes. I woke up about 30 minutes ago because I couldn't sleep. It's hard to when you know you're going to go on a life changing journey just to return a book to someone.

I've checked everything off of my check list, and put it into the car, all except for my backpack, and decide to take a minute to really think this through and clear my mind.

I decide that the black journal, that is Connors, will be called The Book only because I have no clue what else to call it and rather not refer to it as "Connors black leather journal." That'd be quite repetitive and annoying.

Soon, I find myself getting bored with my own thoughts and pick up The Book. I know that it's rude to read his journal but honestly, he shouldn't have left it if he didn't want it to be read.

Day 1
9:47 AM
I came out yesterday...everything's going okay so far. I'm getting some smiles in the hallways, and the occasional glare from the few homophobes, but I don't care. I'm me now, I feel better...to a certain extent. Now the next step is to tell him how I feel. We have fourth hour together so I hope this works....
3:10 PM
It didn't work. Sawyer stopped me in the hallway and was calling me names. He pushed me against the lockers and nearly chocked me to death. Luckily, Troye saw what happened and basically saved my life and slayed sawyers while at it. (Note to self: make sure to thank Troye a shit ton.) I'm in the hospital, by the way. Some of the younger nurses keep flirting with me. I'm guessing that they haven't heard that I'm gay yet. It's really weird, and makes me uncomfortable, honestly. But I can't blame them for something that they don't know. I just hope that I can get out of here soon. I hate it.

I close the book and look at the time. My phone reads 3:25 AM. "Alright," I murmur quietly to myself, "let's hit the road." I get up out of my warm, and comfortable spot on my bed. Putting The Book in my pack and swinging it over my shoulders, I grab my keys and head out the front door.

I get in my car, throwing my back to the passenger seat, and plug my phone into the auxiliary cord. It started playing Together by The xx. In my opinion, it's a great song to listen to on a night drive. I backed out of my drive way and drove down the road. I stopped at the stop sign at the end of my street, and heard my phone go off. It was a text from my sister, Sage.
"Have fun, don't get hurt, I'll cover for you. I see the way you look at him. Don't worry. "
I felt a pang of guilt run through my veins.
I didn't even say goodbye to my family...but it's not like I'll be gone forever. I'll be coming back. We're on Spring break now, so it won't effect me academically. I'll be fine.
I text her back and say thank you, goodbye, and i love you. She asks when I'll be home. I feel horrible because I can't exactly answer that question, so I just reply with "soon."

I stop at the gas station and buy some candy, chips, and an energy drink. I pay the cashier who looks at me funny. "What're ya doin out this late, kid?" The man looks older than me, late thirties maybe, and he has a strong southern American accent. But what should I expect? We are in Oklahoma. "I'm going to see family," I lied, "they live very far away." I answer, he looks surprised, which I'm guessing was caused by my accent.

I get my things and get into the car. I sit there for a minute to think. Wait...I don't even know where the fuck I'm going or where he even went. I sigh in frustration, yanking open my bag and grabbing The Book, I search through it until I find some what of an idea of where he may have gone.

Day 21
He still hasn't noticed my efforts to get his attention. Life isn't going so well, not just for that reason, but also because my parents aren't doing so well financially, so that's causing them to argue more. My friends are all too busy for me, and he is with his own friends now. My grades have plummeted. Instead of having A's and high B's I now have low C's and D's. I've made a plan, and I think I'm just going to leave. I have enough money and my friends, Joey and Daniel, would let me stay with them until I got up on my feet. They live in Carson City, Nevada. It'll take a couple of days to get there, the way I'm going. Maybe a week or so, because I'm going through the Rocky Mountains. I wanted to get some good pictures and things, but it'll be a nice adventure. Of course I'll stop in Wichita, Denver, and probably some other places to sleep and get pictures but I'll mostly be on the road.

At that point, I knew exactly where I was going. First stop; Wichita, Kansas.

I started to drive down the quiet highway with Discoloration by Golden Dawn playing through the speakers. I didn't think about anything as I drove. Not Connor, my family, my friends, or what would happen now. I just focused on the music in the background, and the road right in front of me.

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Hello hello hello. Long time no see guys! I know it's been a while since I've updated. And in so so so sorry. I really don't have an excuse except for procrastination. So here's a nice long chapter I'll hopefully be updating more often so yeah. Thank you all for reading my crap that you call "fan fiction" it means a lot to me. I love you all so freaking much. You're amazing. Have a great day/night/afternoon/evening/morning.
With Much Love,
Jay<3