Play 'Time Of Your Life' by Greenday to be able to feel the feels of the Epilouge *insert creepy winky face* here's your creepy winky face: ;)))))
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15 years later...
-Luke-
Scars.
Physically I'm alive, but mentally, I'm scarred. When you have bruises, cuts, or scars, you can tell people how you got them. But mental scars are only seen by you. Seen and judged by the tiny voice in your head. The more mental scars you get the more insults the voice will give you. And the greater the insults the lonlier you get. More depressed to be exact.
When you think everything is going to be okay, something bad eventually happens, and that's the exact thing that happened to us.
My feet led me to the most heartbreaking place I can ever be.
The graveyard.
Amongst all the graves I can see, one really stood out. I saw the most familiar grave I've ever seen.
Catherine's grave.
Slowly, I walked towards it and sat beside the grave.
Catherine Juliette Taylor.
It still hurts so much. She may have left physically, but she never left me mentally.
"So it's been 15 years since you left us, Cat. 15 years of me grieving. 15 years of us,"
"I still can't forget you. Your eyes, your smile, your hair, or simply, you,"
"Every little thing. Every little detail. Every single goddamned detail about you,"
"The way you laugh, the way you cry, the way you took care of us and the way you love,"
"I remember how I asked you to be mine. I remember how I asked if I can label you as my girlfriend, you said yes and I was so damn happy,"
Three years after that, I asked her if she could marry me and she said yes again. We made so many preparations and when that day came, I was feeling so many emotions. Happy and nervous, both at the same time.
"They told rumors at your funeral like you wanted the car to swerve, but I knew you wouldn't because... because you rode with me and our children,"
"When I saw the people who caused your death, I went nuts. Juliette and Jace wanted me to stop but I just can't,"
"Juliette told me this "Daddy, stop it please. I don't want you to scream" but then I replied to her "Juliette, sweetheart, please, stay out of it" and that's how I know I hurt her. I never stopped shouting but Juliette and Jace wanted me to. And I didn't listen,"
"Because why would I? They caused your death, Cat. Your life,"
Jace and Juliette were two when Cat left us. They grew up 13 years without a mom, but they handled it swiftly. They took care of me instead of me taking care of them. And I hate it when I realize that. I hate it.
There had been no day that I had not been crying over her. There was not a time that I didn't cry myself to sleep. And as clingy as I may sound, I don't give a sh*t about it right now. I don't care if I cry, not when it's because of her. I don't mind my face being tear-stained when I cry because I grieve. I cry because of her. I also cry because of my own questions. Questions that haunted me 13 years ago.
{If you're confused, two years after Cat and Luke married, she died ;)}
And now, bead by bead my tears fall down my face. I ask myself the same questions I did during her funeral: Why didn't I die? Why did it have to be her? Why not me?
Maybe it's raining, or maybe it's me being torn and broken into tiny pieces.
"We were so happy. We were sadness- free, we were friends with Michael, and Aly,"
"But that one stupid accident came,"
"And I know, you all want us to be happy, but I just can't,"
"Juliette and Jace told me that their mommy wants us to be happy, but they're our children, they have the power to make people feel better,"
I wipe my tears off and familiar voices ring my ear.
"Dad? Is that you?" Jace asks me while he and Juliette run towards me
"Hey, dad" Juliette tells me, sitting down on the ground
"Mom," she continues smiling at her mother's grave
"Hey mom, hey dad," Jace greets
"I'll leave you two here, I'll wait in the car" I said
I heard faint 'okays' from them as I walked away. Little did they know, I was faintly listening to them.
"Hey, mom, it's Juliette. So today, we had our exams. And you know what? I caught Jace copying me during our Geometry class"
"No I didn't!" Jace shouted laughing
"Um heck yeah you did. Mom, Jace is a cheater. He copied me on my geometry test. That's final," Juliette said being the boss around Jace
"Mom, hey, Jace here. Um so we had swimming practice a while ago, so you can see that my hair is quite wet. And you know what coach told me?"
"What?" Juliette asked
""Jace Patterson you are one fast swimmer, I salute you" and I was so happy, mom. I know you were there. And I know you're here with me, Juliette, and dad,"
"Mom, I was thinking of joining a band, do you think dad would support me?"
Of course I would.
"Wait? A what? What the heck man? That is rad!"
"Mom, they told me I had a great singing voice and it's just the thing they needed,"
"And the twist of that is, I'm the only girl in the band,"
"Mom, we try our best to help dad, but he's only person who can solve his sadness. You may have left us physically, but in our hearts and minds you never will leave us," Juliette tells her mom
"Yeah, mom. We promise to make dad be happy again, right Juliette?"
"Right. I love you mom" Juliette said a few tears escaping her eyes
She wiped it off and Jace said "I love you, mom"
And who knows, maybe they're right. Maybe we're going to be fine.
But one sentence never escaped my mind.
Catherine Juliette Taylor-Patterson, I will forever and always love you.
THE END
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And Cat's dead just like that. It was so easy to write. I just wanted to have an un-clichè story so I thought I should kill Cat. The things that have happened in the past 15 years were being told by Luke.
Sorry for the sad ending. Nevertheless, there were still happy times in this part ;) and it's in this a/n hehehe :3
Thanks for reading!
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