dear you,
that afternoon
we caught up
a lot.
but i obviously missed
out the part as on why
i was avoiding you
and came up with some stupid excuse.
you werent convinced
but you still took it.
happiness was bubbling in my stomach.
we talked and talked until we got thirsty
and i told you i was going to make
us some lemonade.
and you followed me
and i asked you
" why?" i asked " i'll come back quickly." i added
" i just want to watch you make the lemonade. " you said with all honesty
" and why is that? " i questioned you with an awkward laugh trying to keep that small happiness bubbling in the pit of my stomach under control.
trying to act relaxed
but my heart was pumping so hard
i thought it might fly out.
what was so interesting about me making lemonade?
" i just enjoy watching you do things like that. " you said, not wavering one bit.
" ..huh?"
i tilted my head
but you just shrugged and guided me to the kitchen.
its funny because this is my house
but you already knew your way around
so well.
that afternoon was probably
the happiest afternoon ive ever had.
and at that moment
i realised i couldnt ever possibly
give up on you.
even if it means that
i wont be the one having you at the very end.
just as long as you're happy,
i'll be happy too.
sincerely,
me
