It'll Have To Be Enough [Kellic]

There's Hell Above Me

Vic's POV

I was still holding Kellin as he cried, leaning up against the bus. Tony and Mike had already gone inside after I assured them with nods that it was okay. I wasn't going to hurt Kellin. I loved the person I held in my arms, I would never physically hurt him. I was boiling mad still, trying to keep calm, trying to keep from holding him too tight, trying not to crush him.

"Kellin?" I whispered into his ear.

"Yes?" He didn't bother calling me baby anymore.

"I'm extremely upset and disappointed right now," I whispered softly.

Kellin didn't answer via the spoken word, he just shook.

"And you know I don't trust you. And that I sure as hell don't trust Jamie," I said, rubbing his back, trying to keep him from crying. As angry as I was, I didn't want him to cry.

"Now, I want you to tell me why you made out with him. I want to know why, and I want to know now, or I'm just going to get angrier. I won't hurt you, but I might hurt quite a few objects around me," I said, attempting to keep my voice level. After all, we were surrounded by tour buses, our friends and band members were all soundly asleep.

"I...I was so angry last night," Kellin sniffled, "and...I don't know. I was out by my bus, drinking a mug of Jack...I hadn't drank too much, so I wasn't drunk, I'm not blaming this on me not being of sound mind. And Jamie saw me drinking before I could hide the mug, he was out here, sitting on the steps of your bus. He called me over, and stupidly I did. He saw me stumble a little, he knew I was slightly intoxicated. Enough to do something stupid. I sat down on the steps next to him, and we were talking about the tour...and I was getting mad. I snapped at him about kissing you, how wrong it was...when he kissed me. And I didn't stop him. I was furious at you, and I don't know what I was thinking. Maybe I wanted to get back at you, maybe I was too drunk, maybe I was just being a stupid jackass."

Kellin was telling the truth. He was wailing and crying, all over again. He was telling the truth.

"Kellin. I think you're telling the truth, and I'm glad about that. But if I find out you're lying, we're done. If this happens again, we're done. Okay?" I asked. Kellin nodded against my shoulder.

"Kellin, we're going to continue with our relationship. But it's going to take a long time before I trust you again," I said, laying my hands on his shoulders, steadying him.

"Okay," Kellin whispered, still shaking. He was stumbling, and he couldn't really stand by himself. I sighed and picked him up, cradling him to my body. I kicked open the door to my bus, and walked to my bunk, laying Kellin on it. I climbed up onto it with him, letting him curl up next to me, still shaking, despite the three blankets and my warmth. I sighed, wondering if Kellin would ever do that again. Or if I was caught in that situation? I'd have to hold onto my word, and break it off. I guess that would be up to Kellin, what we would do if that happened. Tony looked at me from across the aisle, and raised his eyebrows. I nodded back at him and squeezed Kellin, who was sleeping, as if to say "I love him, no matter what he's done."

Tony nodded, and smiled slightly, giving me a thumbs up. At least he approved of this. It would suck to have my own band members not like Kellin or me just because of one mistake. Well, two. Jamie was still no where to be seen, and it had been two and a half hours. Pierce The Veil and Sleeping With Sirens weren't scheduled to play until tonight, so our band members just let me and Kellin sleep away what had happened this morning and last night. I fell asleep holding Kellin close, and as I drifted off to sleep, I almost forgot about Kellin and Jamie and my heart shattering inside of my chest.

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When I woke up later that day, around 3 in the afternoon, Kellin was still dead asleep, snoring. Tony and Mike were up and walking around, playing music quietly over the bus' PA system.