Present ,
Why does everything have to end with a goodbye?
Wouldn't it just have been simpler, From the start to have been friends and nothing else?
That way I'll save myself from all the pain and regret.
Too bad that the heart always gets involved in everything.
Sigh.
But hey at least things didn't end up that bad.
From my perspective I thought the end of the world was coming for me.
Good thing I was wrong .
4 Years Ago...
It was a very special day for me. It was the day that I was allowed to be free. The day that I had been waiting for since I was born. What made this so very special for me?
I was finally a adult. I am now officially a adult both legally and biologically. Woohoo for me. So now I can celebrate my birthday with so much happiness, greatness, and joy. All of that good stuff. But I knew as I got older I would realize more things and along with that came the responsibilities. I found it hard at times. Trying to balance school,work, and my life all the same time. There were many occasions where I would want to stay in bed and cry myself to sleep thinking about all of things going on in my life. For example thinking about rather I would want to go to college or move out and start my own life. You know like getting married and starting a family. But in the end I decided to go to college and I did. I got a scholarship to go to college and graduated high school with a really high Gpa. I was very proud of myself, along with the fact that at the same time I was really scared. I knew that this was going to be a huge opportunity for me in life but I knew this would mean I would have to start over and leave my family/friends and home behind. I had lived in North Carolina and would have had to move all the way to California. In the end after a lot of hard thinking I decided it was for the best if I went to college in California. After all Opportunity would be what will help me in life and my family. Even if that meant I had to start a new life all on my own. I was ready to take on this challenge.
California, I had just landed in California an was at Lax I was waiting to see when my uber would come to pick me up an take me to my college. After 20 minutes it came. I was ready, ready for what you may ask your self I was ready for a new beginning an new fresh start. An guess what my little dumb 18 old butt did... I walked in an I tripped an fell what a great way to enter to my new college in front of people who I don't even know an it's the first thing I do,Oh God help me! But I got back up an went looking for the lady at the desk to help me find my dorm an she told where it was an I got there. It felt great to be able to be alone,happy,free. All of this, I sat my things down an started unpacking. Soon I was already done unpacking. I had checked my phone an saw a couple of missed calls from my parents I called them back an they were happy to know that I had made it safe and sound an they told me they missed me so much already. I missed them to a lot. It was the first day of school an I was looking for my class an I was so relieved I had found it an wasn't all lost. I chose my seat in the middle beside a window because I had always liked sitting by the window. Class was almost over when I saw this girl and boy walk past my class and I stared right at them. I knew my life wasn't going to be the way I thought it was going to be when I saw them oh boy here we go again. Ughhhh Whyyyy Why did this happen to me, When,How?? A lot of things were going through my mind as I saw them and now I knew my life was going to be all up side down. Again....
