My Letters

Sam// January 28th, 2015

Dear Sam, 

I don't know why I get so emotional at night but it happens quite regularly.  Today I actually had a reason though.  I was looking for fetus pictures of us but instead I found some of my dad.  Not just pictures though, videos too.  Honestly I could listen to his voice forever and never get tired of it.  I just feel like he left too early and I didn't get to say goodbye.  I don't like admitting it but I used to call his phone just to listen to his voicemail.  This page is probably going o be soaked by the time I get done. Do  you know how hard it is to wake up everyday knowing that you can't see the person that you love the most?  To have the light in your life never come back?  I just want to be happy again.  I just want to be genuinely happy again, Sam.  I can hear his voice playing over and over again in my head.  I just want it to stop.  Make it stop please.  

~Leah