Happiness. Yeah, that's what I feel. He gave me this feeling again. I love him. I love everything about him. Everything? Yeah y'know his cute laugh that makes you smile even when your mad. His eyes the one that you can just stare into and get lost. His smile the one that is the cutest thing. And his lips, oh his lips. You can kiss them for days , I know I would. He's my everything, One and only. Oh god I love him. I can not go a second without him running through my mind. He's so immaculate. He keeps me sane when I'm ready to go crazy. Only reason I'm still in this hell hole of a world. Always has been. I love the thought of his last name after my name. It's perfect. What the hell I'm only 14 , marriage shouldn't be on my mind. I really hope we can last long enough to get married. That'd be perfect. I still remember the day we first met. I was fooling around with this guy who turned out to be the only reason I met him. We were at the mall and lets just say I was rather jealous when my best friend liked him. Pathetic , right? I don't know , I'm just happy he's mine again. Is it bad that I want sneak him in my house just so I can sleep next to him? Feel his heartbeat ? Maybe. I don't know. Let me tell you this, You would never expect to fall head over heels for a guy that you thought would be a mistake. He's not a mistake, He's the calculation of perfection. I love him. God how did this boy get me so love struck? I don't know but I'm happy he did. He is my everything.
