three; stressed out
8:49 p.m.
just a couple of hours until I leave for California. the plane doesn't leave till 5 in the morning but I just couldn't get any sleep. Lauren was right beside me, peacefully sleeping while I made sure everything was supposed to go like planned.
"go to sleep baby" Lauren mumbled.
I looked at her as she furrowed her eyebrows peacefully.
"I wish I could." I rest my head on the head board of the bed, closing my Mac and placing it on the side table.
I grab my phone from the night stand and see missed calls from my best friend.
I instantly called back hearing the rings.
"c'mon." I say after the 5th ring.
"hello?" I hear his voice.
"you called me?" I whisper making sure Lauren is asleep.
"yeah, exactly what time is the plane landing at LAX?"
"um, the flight is four hours, twenty-six minutes so around nine thirty?" I hear Lauren groan, cuddling into my side.
"okay homes, I'll see you then."
"okay bye homie g."
I hang up and slowly slide down onto the bed placing my phone under my pillow.
"good night little j." Lauren whispers.
"good night lo." I smile and wrap my arms around Lauren's waist pulling us together so no space was in between us.
sleep instantly took over.
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I wake up and see the neon green numbers on the black rectangle barely being able to see.
2:54 a.m.
I quickly get out of bed running to the bathroom. "shit." I whisper yell running back out.
"Lauren, baby wake up." I shook her.
"mmm." she groaned.
"I'm going to miss the flight." I whisper.
"get rid of Jc Jr." she says giggling a little after.
"I did." I say grabbing my phone from under the pillow.
2:56 a.m.
"I'll be placing my stuff in your Benz." I kiss her forehead and grab my luggage by the bedroom door.
i place my luggage by the apartment door, anxiously look for my white Nikes.
"Lauren! where are my Nikes!?" I yell walking into the small "work" room Lauren and I share.
I look around finally finding them in the corner.
"never mind!" I quickly slip them on and run out to grab my white nike sweater.
"are you ready?" the green-eyed beauty says slipping on some moccasins.
"yeah, I'm just really nervous. what if my mother hates me? what if kian is late? what if-" she softly kisses me, making me relax.
"think of the positive stuff, babe." she says giggling.
"you're right. I haven't seen my poor mother and I highly doubt G goes to see her. he's been pissing me off lately." I close my eyes in anger, trying to contain myself.
"is that why you were yelling the day before?" the Cuban says walking to the door, grabbing my luggage.
"yeah." I take a deep breath and pick up my carry-on bag.
"wait," she stops and thinks, "aren't you going to take your Mac?" she furrows her eyebrows slightly.
"oh shit, yeah. thanks for reminding me." I walk back into the room seeing the bed a mess. I walk to my computer and place it in my carry-on.
I walk out to see Lauren looking down, thinking.
"babe?" she quickly gets out of her thoughts and looks up to me.
"yeah." she pursed her lips.
"you ready?"
"yeah, let's go." she opens the door, dragging my luggage behind her.
I walk out and shut the door, locking it after.
"want to drive?" Lauren asks turning around.
"sure." I fast walk up to her, intertwining our fingers together.
Lauren opens up the trunk and places my stuff in the back.
I walk to the drivers side and open the door, sitting inside.
Lauren follows and we shut the doors at the same time. she hands me the keys and I place them in the ignition, turning it making the car roar.
"ayye." she hits my arm.
"what? I'm just showing off to the pedestrians sleeping." I giggle as Lauren rolled her eyes.
"mmhm." she says resting her head on her hand leaning against the window.
"connect your phone." Lauren reaches to grab my phone from my joggers pocket and connects my phone in, automatically going to Spotify.
I wish I found some better sounds no ones ever heard,
Lauren and I both look at eachother with our mouths shaped in a 'o'.
i wish I had a better voice that sang some better words, we both sang as I sped off into the morning darkness.
I wish I found some chords in an order that is new, I wish I didn't have to rhyme every time I sang,
I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink, but now I'm insecure and I care what people think.
my names 'blurryface' and I care what you think
my names 'blurryface' and I care what you think.
wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days, when our momma sang us to sleep but now, we're stressed out.
wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days, when our momma sang us to sleep but now, we're stressed out.
we're stressed out.
sometimes a certain smell will take me back to when I was young,
how come I'm never able to identify where it's coming from,
I'd make a candle out of it if I ever found it, try to sell it, never sell out of it, I'd probably only sell one,
it'd be to my brother, 'cause we have the same nose, same clothe homegrown a stones thrown from a creek we used to roam,
but it would remind us of when nothing really mattered,
out of student loans and treehouse homes we all would take the latter.
my name's 'blurryface' and I care what you think.
my name's 'blurryface' and I care what you think.
wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days, when our momma sang us to sleep but now, we're stresses out.
wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days, when our momma sang us to sleep but now, we're stressed out.
we used to play pretend, give each other different names,
we would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at our faces
saying, "wake up, you need to make money."
yo.
we used to play pretend, give each other different names,
we would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at our faces,
saying, "wake up, you need to make money."
yo.
wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days, when our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.
wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days, when our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.
used to play pretend, used to play pretend, funny
we used to play pretend, used to play pretend, wake up, you need the money
used to play pretend, used to play pretend, funny
we used to play pretend, use to play pretend, wake up, you need the money
we used to play pretend, give each other different names,
we would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at out face,
staying "wake up, you need to make money."
yo.
I look at Lauren who was smiling at me.
"what?" I quickly look at her and then back to the road.
"I didn't know you like twenty øne pilots." she says giggling, grabbing my hand.
"really?" I scoot back more on the seat.
"I'm just kidding, goof ball." she says.
we go quiet for a bit hearing 'Shameless' by The Weeknd in the background.
"you know," I break the silence, "I'm going to miss you more than you're going to miss me."
"lies." she rolls her eyes.
"I'm going to be a clingy girlfriend. I'm going to buy you a new MacBook, then a new phone, and many other things when I'm chillin' watchin netflix." I step on the gas a little more.
"I'll return them all because there's no need to buy my things I already have."
"I'm going to spoil my baby girl" I smirk.
"I guess this fame stuff is making us used to not seeing each other." I see her staring from the corner of my eye.
"see that's the thing, I don't go on tour like you do, I'm not the biggest singer like I'm not recognized as a 'singer' or rapper, I'm recognized as your girlfriend and that's all I want to be recognized as that and only that." she grabs my hand and places it on her thigh.
"I know but one day you're going to go on tour with me and the girls. you'll be singing your songs and people are going to single along as we sing the chorus. your brother may be huge, but that doesn't stop you from being huge, too." she says, humming to the music in the background.
"we'll be in the city of stars one day." I say sighing deeply.
"one day." she shakes her head looking out to the Miami darkness.
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skip rest of the ride
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my heart began beating faster as we pulled up to the drop off.
I sigh unbuckling my seat belt and letting myself fall back onto the seat.
"well," I say breaking the awkward silence, "this is it, I guess." I run my hands through my hair.
"stop making it like you're leaving for ever."
"I could get killed in California, you never know."
she rolls her eyes and leans in to kiss me.
"I love you." she whispered pecking my lips once more.
"te amo." she whispers and pecks my lips one last time.
"yo te amo." I smile and open the car door. I disconnect my phone from the aux cord and step outside. I click the button to open the trunk and close the door.
I walk to the back seeing Lauren taking out my luggage.
"thanks you baby." I hug her from behind and close the trunk.
"anything for you." she smiles and turns around, still in my arms.
She pecks my lips after hearing an iPhone camera click going off.
"woah. PDA." I say snuggling my face into Lauren's neck.
"sorry it's just that I'm a huge fan o-of you g-guys." she stutters.
"nothing to be nervous about" I say letting go of Lauren and walking towards the girl.
"could we take a picture and video for snapchat?" she asks looking at us both.
"sure." Lauren and I say in unison.
I wrap my arms around the girl and Lauren kisses her cheek as she snaps the picture.
she posts it and goes back to the camera.
"hi snapchat!" I say waving to the camera.
"hey guys." Lauren says smiling.
"thank you guys so much." she says ending the video.
"no problem..." I stop.
"Natalie." she smiles.
"no problem Natalie, but I have to get going or I'm going to miss my plane."
"same. thank you again." Natalie walks way waving.
we wave back.
Lauren smiles and gives me a quick peck.
"te amo mi amor."
I hug her tightly hearing her gasp.
"sorry." I whisper into her ear, hearing her adorable giggle.
"you've got to go." she pulls away and looks at me.
"yeah. I'll call you when I land in California." I grab the handle of my luggage and smile.
"you're so cute." she scrunches her nose and gives my a quick peck.
"you need to go." she pushes me playfully.
"I really do." I check my phone and it reads 3:47 a.m..
"I'm going to miss you a lot." she says hugging me.
"me too." I sigh hugging her back and kissing her head.
"call me when you land in California."
she pulls away and pushes me away.
"leave." she says giggling.
"alright, bye Lo."
"bye Jc. I love you!"
I smile and grab my luggage walking inside the airport.
"California, here I come." I mumble walking up to check in.
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skip check in process...
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I deeply sigh hearing harmonizers screaming after me.
"JORDAN!" I finally stop and smile at the girls.
"holy shit you're hotter in real life." a brunett yells.
"thanks." I smile taking a picture with a girl.
"can you carry me and kiss my cheek?" a blue haired girl asks.
"sure." I let go of my carry-on and pick her up. I kiss her cheek as someone snaps a picture.
"thank you so much." she says smiling.
"no problem." I smile back, placing her on her feet.
"I actually got you something." she walks up to her friends and takes what she had from her hand.
"here you go." she hands me a backpack full of stuff.
"thank you so much." I peck her cheek.
she pecks my cheek and walks away.
girls started leaving once they started giving me things.
I smile and walk to where I was walking to which was where you wait for the plane.
I sit down and take my phone out, opening Twitter automatically.
@jgillium
thanks for all the sweets girls☺️ ilysm
I smile turning off my phone waiting to be called.
"seats C 24 to C30, board the airplane."
I get up and walk towards the plane.
here we go.
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