LOVE KILLS (VKOOK)

Chapter 10

TAEHYUNG

 "SURPRISE!!" We all yelled when Jin walked into the studio even though he already knew we were having a party. There were streamers hanging from the roof and balloons floating around. Jin blew out the candles to his cake and we started eating. "Ya this cake is so good." Jin said. "Is there anything you don't like?" Namjoon said. "True but the cake is really good." Jimin stated. The cake was a round chocolate cake with cream in the middle. After we finished eating, we put on some music and danced. Of course Jungkook was dancing his heart out to girl group songs and Namjoon was attempting to dance. I love watching Jungkook dance and just have fun. If there's a smile on his face then I'm happy. He is my source of happiness. The night consisted of laughter, joy and sloppy dancing. We were all in the middle of dancing to big bang songs when Jungkooks phone started ringing. He walked out the door of the studio so he could hear better. We continued dancing and singing along to the music. "Ya Jin happy birthday!" Jhope shouted. "Happy birthday eomma!" The members shouted back. After a couple songs, I realised that Jungkook has been on the phone for a while so I went out to go see if he was okay. I opened the door and closed it behind me. I saw Jungkook sitting, leaning against the wall and my heart shattered. He has tears rolling down his cheeks, breathing pattern unsteady and his phone is on the floor next to him where he must of dropped it. I rushed over to him and held him close. "Kookie it's okay, I'm here." 

JUNGKOOK 

 In the middle of dancing to big bang, my phone started ringing. Who on earth would be calling me now? especially at night. I walked outside of the studio to answer the phone."Hello?" I answered. "Jungkook.." It is my dad. He doesn't sound too happy and I have a feeling that he is about to tell me some bad news. "Jungkook, your... your.." He sounds like he is on the verge of tears. "W-Whats wrong?" I said nervously. "I don't know how to say this but your mother just passed away."I froze. This can't be right. "W-What?!" I said loudly. "Jungkook I'm sorry." Dad said. "How is this possible? What happened?!" I said, tears escaping my eyes. "Your mother.. she was very sick. She was diagnosed with brain cancer 2 months ago and it got really bad. The tumors continued to grow and they weren't curable." He explained to me but I still don't understand. "What are you talking about? She didn't have cancer!" I shouted. "I'm sorry Jungkook, she didn't want me to tell you. She didn't want to hurt you."
"I'm your fucking son!! You should tell me these things! She's gone and I didn't get to say bye!" I yelled, angry and sad all at once. I normally wouldn't swear at my dad but I can't help it right now. It was getting hard to breathe and the tears were coming out faster. "Jungkook I'm sorry.." I dropped my phone from shaking so much. I slouched down to the ground letting all the information sink in. I kept sobbing for what felt like a long time but was probably only a minute until the door of the studio opened up. Taehyung came out and he saw me crying. Great, I'm a mess right now. I don't want him to see me like this but at the same time, I need him so fucking much. He rushed over to me, sitting next to me. He pulled me into his chest, holding me tight. "Kookie it's okay, I'm here." He whispered into my hear. That made me cry harder because his voice is beautiful and soothing and I love him so fucking much. I don't deserve him. My mind went back to my mum. She's gone. "Mum.." I whispered, letting the tears fall. "What's wrong?" Tae asked. "Mum.. she's gone." I said to him and started sobbing all over again. I snuggled into Taehyungs chest, probably soaking his shirt from all my tears. "Shh, I've got you." Tae said and it was soothing. "Hear my heartbeat? Just focus on that. Breathe Kookie." He told me and I listened, controlling my breathing. When I finally calmed down a bit, I started explaining everything to Tae. "My mum.. she's.. she's dead Tae. She had cancer for the past 2 months and no one told me anything and-"
 "Shh it's okay Kookie." Taehyung stopped my word vomit. I pulled him in for a tight embrace. I never wanted to let go of him. It was cold out here but when I'm with Tae all I feel is warmth. "I want to go." I confessed. I'm not in the mood to party anymore.
We walked inside, Taehyungs are still around my waist. All the members looked at saw the state I was in. They stopped their music and came over to us. "Ya Jungkookie what's wrong?" Jimin asked, frowning. "Guys I think we should go back to the hotel. Jungkook just received some sad news, his mother passed away." I was glad Tae spoke for me because I would of started sobbing all over again if I mentioned it and that wouldn't be pretty. "It's okay, you guys can stay and have fun. I'll just go back by myself." I sniffled. It was true, I didn't want the members to miss out on having fun because of me. After all it is Jin's birthday even though a part of me wants Tae to come with me to the hotel. "No it's okay, I had a great time here and we are all tired so we will come back to the hotel." Jin said. "Yes, I'm definitely coming back with you." Tae said looking down at me and he made me smile. I love him. "Jungkook we are all here for you okay?" Jimin told me. "Thank you." I held back my tears that threatened to fall. 

When we got back to the hotel, I pulled out my journal that I secretly keep. I wrote down reasons to kill myself. Reason number one: ugly. Reason number two: no one will love me. That one was crossed out after Taehyung asked me out. 

So the new reason number two: Horrible son.