Depression - A Muslimah's point of view

Is there a point in living anymore?

Is there a point in living anymore?

As a Muslim, we are taught that only Allah (God) gives life and takes life as we belong to him. He put us in this world with a purpose, to get through the trials he puts us in - The best way we can get through trials is by remembering that god does not burden a soul with more than it can bear. So we should always have faith in our lord. He's given us happiness the same way he gives us sadness. We should always remember that we all need a balance of happiness and sadness in our lives. We should be grateful for all the good moments and all the bad ones too as they have brought us to where we are now. We may not be happy with where we are now but we mustn't forget that we haven't reached our destination yet. We are going through our dark tunnel and will soon reach the light that is waiting for us at the end. The waiting is the hardest part. It's where we sometimes find it hard to put all our faith in our lord. 'Don't confuse your path with your destination. Just because it's stormy now doesn't mean you aren't headed for sunshine' – This quote is one of my favourites, I think I'm attached to this quote... is it possible to get attached to words?... it is! When I read this quote, I imagine myself walking through a windy forest with rain pouring over me and a huge smile on my face because I know that this route is leading me to something so great. Once I reach my destination, the journey through the forest will be nothing and that is sort of what many of us are going through right now.  We've got our sunshine waiting for us but the only way we can reach this is through the trials we are facing, as we go through this journey, all the problems we are facing are actually preparing us, molding us for our sunshine.  It's soo hard to see now but I promise you, it'll all be worth it.

When I first started getting my depressing 'episodes'; I always thought of Robin Williams. He was such a funny character and he always made his audience smile but that was just a mask for him, He was so strong to have been able to make everyone smile when inside he was just breaking. I felt like I knew how he felt and thought he was so lucky to have left this evil world. He was so lucky to get away and he must be resting peacefully in his grave, having nothing worry about anymore.  But, as Muslims, we believe in life after death. What we get in our eternal life relies on our actions in this world that's why we should try to resist temptations for we have things much greater waiting for us in our eternal abode – Jannah (Heaven). What we have there is not worth losing over the temptations of this world.

Someone once told me that all we have to do in this life is please Allah (God) so we can go to Jannah (Heaven),  we shouldn't take part in any Haraam (forbidden) actions as they will earn us some time in Jahannam (Hell). This is much easier said than done, trust me. If it was so easy for us all, we'd be angels but we're not unfortunately, we all have flaws, we can't resist all the temptations of this world no matter how hard we try but we should keep trying and keep repenting for the times we've fallen down, intentionally or unintentionally.... Starting to go off topic now (typical me lol)

Resisting the temptations is actually the hardest thing everyone goes through. In this day and age, resisting our Naffs (Desires & Temptations) is our biggest Jihad (Battle). I think when we feel depressed, we give into the Naffs (Desires & Temptations) but we don't realise till we go too far or we get hurt. When I thought of Robin Williams, I looked up to him for finally leaving this world and freeing himself from the depression. I completely forget about what everyone has to face after leaving this world as I had my head wrapped around all the negative things in life. I didn't think about the time in the grave. All I could think was that there is no point in spending another second in this world. Why was Allah (God) keeping me in this world when all I get is problems I can't deal with, when I have no future to look forward to? I felt like there was no point in spending another second in this world. I couldn't see life getting any better. I thought I've reached the worst point in life and things will never get better so I might as well leave. Why stay and waste time in a place where I'm not wanted?

I think everyone with depression goes through this, maybe not the same way but it could be the same thing. What do you think? If you've got depression, does it feel like this?

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Yours Truly,
-BintShay