Adopted By Justin Bieber (Book 3)

Austin

Tara's POV

Justin walked back in the room and sat down.

"What happened?"

He looked up at me and smiled a little bit.

"Nothing. Shes gone."

I started to feel bad. Justin derserves to be happy.

"You didn't have to get rid of her."

"Yeah I did. She made me lose focus. On the important thing in my life"

"Dad, you didn't pay attention to me when you were with her, and without her. Don't blame it on her."

He got up and walked over to my bed.

"Tara, what you tried to do isn't okay. I care about you. I know I haven't been a good Dad. But I want to change."

"That never lasts."

"It will. I want you to be happy and living. Tara I don't know what I would've done if I had to put you 6ft under."

I was silent for a moment.

"I love you honey"

Just then the doctor walked in.

"Mr. Bieber can we please talk to you."

"Sure, I'll be right back sweetie" He kissed my head and walked out.

1 hour later

Justin has been gone for an hour now. I was bored.
I didn't have my phone or laptop. And there was no T.V.

I was sitting looking at the wall when the door opened.

I was face to face with the boy who saved my life.

The boy who hurt me so many times.

The boy I want to forgive. 

"hey." he said softly.

"hi." I said softly back.

He had flowers in his hand.

"I brought you these." he placed them next to the bed so I could smell them.

"thank you, they smell amazing."

Austin then pulled up a chair.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

"I tried to kill myself. I'm doing fantastic! Thanks for asking." 

"Sorry I even asked. That was dumb of me."

"Its fine."

It was quite between us for a few minutes.

"It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear
You almost feel ashamed
That someone could be that important
That without them, you feel like nothing
No one will ever understand how much it hurts
You feel hopeless; like nothing can save you"

"tara." Austin spoke.

"You screamed my name."

"Yeah, I did."

"Austin. What was I thinking?" I asked.

"You didn't want to live. You yelled "Why won't he love me?" You just wanted to be loved. You felt abandoned once again in your life. You feel like everyone in your life gets up and leaves you."

"I should be use to it."

"You were. But a person can only take so much before they break down."

"I break down to much."

"You are so strong Tara. I look at you and wish I was as brave and strong as you."

"no"

"I held you. I felt your broken heart. I thought you were going to die. I wanted you to know you were going to die loved. I told you I loved you. Cause I do. You've always had my heart."

"I don't love anyone. Not even myself."