Broken Record

Part One

(Y/N) POV:

For the past few days Ashton had been being super sweet. Of course it wasn’t like he hadn’t ever been before, but he was a little overboard. I had wondered why a few times but didn’t give it a second thought. I was happy to spend as much time with him as possible. We were in the bus sitting on opposite sides of the couch; I was on my computer while he was on his phone. This is normally how we spent our mornings recently, just quietly in each other’s company. I was scrolling though tumblr occasionally laughing at posts about the boys, when I abruptly stopped mid laugh, and the smile faded from my lips. My heart had suddenly stopped at what I saw before me. “I was on my computer while he was on his phone. I was scrolling through tumblr occasionally laughing at posts about the boys, when I abruptly stopped mid laugh, and the smile faded from my lips. My heart suddenly stopped. "Babe what's wrong?" Ashton questioned. I looked up at him with tear filled eyes and then back down to the screen, where a picture showed Ashton, lip-locked with a girl with his hands on her hips. I shoved my computer off my lap and onto Ashton's legs, turned and stood up. Just looking at the picture made me sick to my stomach. I turned back just as Ashton turned the computer to look at the screen and guilt washed over his face. He looked up to me, "(Y/N), please, let me explain its not what it looks like." He pleaded to me. I stared at him in disbelief. "Ashton!" I yelled desperately, "How is this not what it looks like?" Gesturing to the computer. He sat there for a few seconds not saying anything. A few seconds that felt like an eternity to me. My eyes welled up again and I turned and started to walk to the door. I heard Ashton scramble to jump off the couch. He ran up and caught my arm and turned me to face him. I could tell he was trying to look into my eyes. I wouldn't meet his, so I just looked at the floor. "Please, it wasn't me. You know I'd never ever hurt you like that, we were talking and she leaned up and kissed me and I pushed her away as quick as I could. Someone must have gotten a picture when I was pushing her away to make it look bad. Please (Y/N)." The tears were tumbling down my face at a fast rate now. I starting thinking through all the close calls I had witnessed with his fans and suddenly it all just seemed like too much. I couldn't hold in the anxiety I felt around some of the fans anymore. I finally had the courage to look up into Ashton's eyes. I immediately regretted the decision, because even though I was feeling betrayed and angry, my heart broke into another million pieces at the tears filling Ashton's eyes. I was breaking inside for him and almost gave in, but I knew that what happened with the fan mattered to me more.

"Ashton, I've sat back and stayed quiet in a lot of times with your fans and the things they do around you and to you. I've held it in I haven't told you how they've affected me and at times I wanted to but-"

"You can't blame it on all the fans when this is just one of the fans!" Ashton says cutting me off, "If you wanted to tell me how come you didn't? We tell each other everything and if it really frustrated you, you should have told me!" He yelled at me. "I wanted to!" I shouted back, "I wanted to but I decided not to tell you because I knew you would get upset with me and I was trying to avoid fights!!! Before, yes, fans never acted as that fan did but some came pretty damn close! But I kept quiet! I held it in! I didn't want you to worry!"

"It's my job to worry! You can't just not tell me, they're my fans and I can take care of them!" He shouted at me, "I can't always rely on you! I thought I could keep it to myself and be fine with it but I'm not and I don't think I have been able to for a while now." I say while looking at my feet again, not wanting to look him in the eye any longer. "For a while now? So you've lied this whole time about not caring at all?" Ashton shouts at me, "Ash I-"

I start, "No! If you had any problems you should have just told me! Sure we might have had an argument or two but it would've been fine in the end! We would've gotten through them together! Unlike the turn this one has taken..." Ashton said slowing as he said the last words. I couldn't believe what he had just said. I slowly looked up to him, biting my bottom lip to keep it from trembling. The colour drained from Ashton's face as he realized what he had said, "(Y/N)...I didn't mean it li-"

"Don't Ashton...you obviously did feel that way at least a little bit, otherwise it wouldn't have been said." I choked out as a new round of tears came flowing down my cheeks. I tore my hand from his grasp and ran out the door of the bus before he could see me fully sobbing. I only knew one place that would help me feel better right now.