The not so nice Mr. Vampire (On Hold)

THIS IS PATHETIC!

I know guys, nowadays I'm posting many author notes and trust me, more than you I'm getting irritated with them. They have broken the flow of my stories completely and I hate it. But I can't help it.

I'm horrified because I'VE LOST ALL MY STORIES! Yes, you read it right. I don't know what went wrong with my laptop. The entire stories folder got deleted and by deleted I mean it got deleted in such a way that I can't restore it from the Recycle bin. The data's gone, just vanished. I'm absolutely shattered. I don't know what to say and what to write! I've cried buckets of tears already and now even tears aren't left in me to cry anymore. I just...don't know. I was going to post a new chapter of At last the princess found her prince today which I wrote by remaining awake for 3 nights in a row! And today when I switched on my laptop to upload it, what do I see? Everything's just gone. All my stories, ideas, every bloody thing!

God I don't know what I'm typing right now as I'm not in a sane state of mind. I've worked freaking hard on all the stories and they are more precious to me than breathing. To say that I feel terrible would be an understatement. I just don't know what to do. I'm going crazy here. I don't mind rewriting a new chapter but what bothers me is that it wouldn't be the same as what I wrote previously but more than that, it's the loss of all my stories that is hurting me the most right now.

What's happening? I took a break to come back with a bang and I was on cloud nine as I was filled with that energy again to give each of my story my best shot but now, I'm feeling drained all over again. Maybe my stars aren't supporting me right now or...I really don't know. I'm ready to bear bigger blows but I go absolutely paranoid when something happens to my stories. Hell I've seriously no idea what am I typing. I'm just letting it all out and I'm sorry because you all have to bear with this crap! I'm going mad! I'm crying! God I've seriously no idea what's happening to me!

The only good thing in this mess is that I can recover my previous chapters on Wattpad. Funny how this portal turned out to be my back up as well and though it's a big relief, it cannot bring back the chapters I had written for other stories. Why? I had written 3 new stories of Manan which I had been planning to publish by the end of this month but now I can't because even they're gone.

Am I complaining? I don't know but venting out my pain, yes, I'm definitely doing that! It's a big blow to me. All I can ask is you guys to wait while I try to stand on my feet again and gather the courage to rewrite my stories. But now, I can't promise when will the next update be. I'll become fine because such situations happen but it's going to take some time. I'll understand if you aren't inetersted in waiting and thus, can stop following me. I won't complain or hold anything against you, really. But I've gone seriously crazy now. I'm going to take my laptop to the technician soon enough and see if there's some way I can get my file back.

By this incident, I hope all other writers learn a lesson as well and start keeping a back up separately. You never know when you may face the same problem and I don't want anybody else to go through what I'm going through right now. This feeling is an absolute torture and some of you might be thinking that I'm overreacting but those who know what their passion is and have worked hard behind it can understand how bad it feels to see your hard work getting wasted. Failure doesn't hurt as you know you tried but to fail without getting the chance to try, that's even worse.

I feel as if a part of me has been ripped apart from me and it's so painful. I'm trying, really really trying to gather myself here but it's very hard. I'm still trying to come to terms with it but I need time. I'll try to get back to you all as soon as possible when I'll feel I'm fine enough to start writing properly again. Until then, it's time to say goodbye.

This goodbye is by chance though, not by choice.

I'm sorry guys.

Take care.

Stay blessed.