True Love Vanishes

untilted part 3

Exactly two days after she gave me her number, we went on our first date. Our first so was at the cafe and then to the park to watch the stars. Next thing we know is that we have been dating for two years now. Ashley had helped me with everything.

I'm sorry reader but this is not a happy ending... It never will be. Unless you say that its good that I got away... From my demons. A year after me and Ashley got together, I got bad again. I missed my mom and my dad never showed up in my life.

One day it got so bad that when Ashley went out to the store, I lost it and started cutting. I went to the bathroom and grabbed my razor. Don't do this scarlet, you can do better! Don't leave Ashley to regret not being here, I thought to myself. My demons pushed all those thoughts from my head and I made sure I still had the razor and I walked to my bed room, I grabbed a piece of paper and started writing.

Ashley,
I am sorry I have to do this but my demons have finally won. Please don't think this is your fault. I love you, I always have. If you ever find my dad tell him he is too late. I would have loved to grow old with you but I cannot do this anymore, from head to toe I am covered in my demons and I cannot do anything to stop them. Just know you are a beautiful and amazing woman. I was going to give you this on our honeymoon but it looks like I will not be present to give it to you. Keep it with you always and I will always be watching you and helping you threw everything, even if I'm... Gone.
-Scarlet

I walked out of my bed room, hands shaking. I put the note on the counter and looked at the razor in my hand. So many thoughts were going threw my head. You were a goner anyways, its your fault mom died, its your fault dad hasn't come back, don't do this Ashley can help you. Your dad will come! I tired pushing every thought out of my head but it wasn't working. I looked at the razor and took a deep breath. I put the razor against my wrist and I started to cut, deeper and deeper. That's when the door opened and Ashley realized what was going on and ran in screaming.

"SCARLET, PLEASE DON'T DO THIS!!"

Ashley grabbed the razor out of my hand and threw it. she grabbed her phone and called 911. She told them where to go and hung up. I was laying there almost lifeless, dying. My mind went blank because I was losing so much blood. Ashley was sitting with me, holding me, crying. Five minutes and someone ran in and moved Ashley. Grabbing me the guy put me on a body carrying thing and rushed me in the ambulance.

I woke up not knowing what was going on and a nurse walked in. "You have lost a lot of blood", she paused... " you will be staying at the hospital for suicide watch".

I heard someone walk in as the nurse finished talking. It was Ashley but as soon as she walked in I passed out. It turns out that the doctor told the nurse to give me medicine to sleep to kill off some pain and bad thoughts.

Next thing I knew was that I was in a teen home and was being watched 24/7.