Who am I to stand in your way?

I've had this song in my head for a while now and I really wanted to just make a one shot to it- so hopefully you like it :) comment if you do <3

Song: Chester Lee- who am I to stand in your way (listen to it while you read? I don't know haha that's what I did while I wrote it.)

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I nervously play with the end of my sweater. I avoid everyone's eyes on me.

They know something's wrong. I'm not laughing, I'm not joking around-

I'm just quiet.

What should I do? What should I say? Should I tell them?

I feel someone rest their arm around me and I look up and see those warm green eyes that always make my day better. Except, right now- they make my day feel worse.

She gently runs Circles on my back and stares at me curiously. I avoid her eyes by staring at the ground.

"What's the matter Camz?" She says softly.

I wish I could answer her. I wish I could answer everyone's questions but I can't.

Instead I just pout and say "I'm hungry..."

She laughs and shakes her head. I watch as her eyes light up while looking at me,

I watch as her head falls back and her hair swings to the side.

I can't help the automatic smile that appears on my face.

I listen to her laugh and I feel it feel in every part of my body... It's like she has taken control and my body just wants to mold into hers, so I can feel her next to me,

As if she was part of me.

But soon her laughter fades and she just smiles at me.

And at that moment I feel the composure I had shatter. I feel my heart break.

Her eyes soften as she notices my mood has change. Her eyes look sad, as if my mood has affected hers.

I instantly smile so she can't feel my sadness. I can be sad but she can't be.

I rest my hand on her cheek.

"I'm okay." I say smiling before walking past her and into my room.

Opening the door I shut it slowly and instantly everything that's been on my mind comes crashing back.

I don't like girls.

I'm not a lesbian.

STOP.

I just appreciate girls are just as hot as guys.

So stop assuming.

My thoughts get jumbled up in my head. I lay on my bed and reach for my pillow, grabbing it for comfort.

She's been so angry lately at what people are saying.

Stop. She says. I don't like girls she says.

I don't realize it but a tear escapes my eyes and falls gently down my face.

She's beautiful.

The way her eyes light up whenever she's singing. The way she smiles when I or one of the girls make her laugh. The way she closes her eyes and feels ever note someone sings. The way her body feels when she wraps her arms around me. The way she tugs on me to get my attention. The way she narrows her green eyes when things get out of hand. The way her green eyes pierce anyone's soul. The way her eyes shine when she's happy.

The way she looks at me.

I clutch tighter onto the pillow in front of me.

The way she makes my heart beat faster when she smiles at me. The way she looks at me as if its just us two. The way she always makes sure I'm okay. The way she knows when I'm mad or sad.

The way she just makes me feel.

I hear a faint knock on the door. I know who it will be- But I don't want it to be.

I grip tighter onto my pillow and steady my breathing. I hear the door open and I hear her walk towards me.

My heart stops just a moment.

Maybe just maybe she's here for me.

She stops next to my bed. I feel the bed dip and her arms circle around me. I feel my body melt Into hers and I feel her grip tighten on me.

I don't open my eyes. I don't let her know I'm awake.

Her breathe hits my neck and all I want to do is turn around and bury my head in her neck.

I want to hold her.

And I don't want to let go.

"Camz..." She whispers.

I refuse to answer.

"I have to go okay?" I can tell she's waiting for a response but I can't give her any.

"If you need anything call me." She whispers kissing my cheek before walking out my room.

With ever step she took I felt my heart breaking.

I bit my lip to keep a sob from espcaping my mouth. I had to wait until she was gone.

I had to wait until I heard her yell goodbye to the other girls.

So I waited.

I heard laughter, and

the door open,

I heard her voice, and

his voice.

I felt my heart break.

And finally,

I heard a sob escape between my lips.