Now a days I don't cry much
I'm not known to be an emotional person
Some think of me as the one born with no emotional Born with no heart
Others think of me as an emotional train reck that has no destination
After this summer I lost all my tears
I was done with crying over insignificant things
When I was 13 I was done
All the sadness, all the anger all the fear that was locked up inside of me
And had never seen day light,all those little things that had happened to me over the course of a year built into bigger things then suddenly I just exploded
Suddenly a hurricane of emotions blasted through me and was put into the world
Then suddenly I saw the world differently
I saw no good in the world
I only saw darkness and pain
I all I did was sleep,cry, think repeat
Sleep, cry,think, repeat
I did alot of thinking, I thought about life itself and everything bad that had ever occur to me, I thought about every time someone turned there back on me, I thought what a fool I was
After a while I wasn't sure what I was crying about, I was about to graduate 8th grade, and I had loving friends. What could be wrong right?
Was I just dwelling on the past?
Was I just crying about something that happened 1, 5, 10 years ago?
I was over the fact that my best friend had betrayed me
But then why was I so depressed?
Secretly inside I knew why, but I didn't admit it.
I didn't feel accepted by society
I didn't know who I was or who I wanted to be
I was in these transition from Girly to emo, then to just plain confuse.
I didn't know where k fitted in the world
I felt like everyone was just judging me, and screaming in my ears
You're not perfect, you're not perfect
But to the rest of the world my life was perfect.
"My biggest problem" was I was an emotional reck who needed attention. I was an emotional reck with no emotions. ..
