Always

Always,
I loved her,
since we were kids,
I remember,
her crying when she scrapped her knee,
and how she asked me to kiss it better,
and how she giggled,
when I said I would get koodies...

Always,
I loved her,
In middle school,
when we started drifting apart,
and I had to pull her back in,
I took her to the mall,
and bought her all the clothes that she wanted,
Even though she refused,
She smiled,
and said we should do this more often,
And we did,
after school we would hang out,
It was around this point...
I realized a feeling I couldn't name...

Always,
I loved her,
Even when she fell for someone else,
And it was me she told me,
I smiled,
but,
on the inside I was crying,
It was then that I realized
a feeling of jealousy...   

Always,
I loved her,
even when she dated someone else,
and she would tell me about her date the next day,
I always nodded,
but,
did she know she was killing me...

Always,
I loved her,
even when she was asked to the dance by some else,
she excepted,
and when she bounced over to tell me,
I smiled,
even though,
I was dying on the inside,
It was then I realized,
I love her...

Always,
I loved her,
even when I fell on her,
and stole her first kiss,
even though I was smiling on the inside,
I apologized,
and she just smiled,
and said it was fine,
even though I knew she was upset,
It was then I realized
she did not share the same feelings as I...

Always,
I loved her,
when she came crying,
because, 
her boyfriend cheated on her,
and I wrapped my arms around her,
telling her how special she was,
and how I would never leave her side,
did she realize how much truth I put in those words...

Always,
I loved her,
Even though I knew it was wrong,
She wrung on the phone,
She was his fiance,
I told her how happy I was for her,
But,
When she hung up the phone,
The salty clear liquid fell from my eyes,
I should have told her my feelings...

Always,
I loved her,
Flowers surrounded me,
And she was dressed in white,
Floating down the aisle,
but,
she wasn't there for me,
she awaited a different man,
when the pastier recited,
speak now or forever hold your peace,
I was too wimpy I couldn't stand up,
and as they kissed,
I couldn't hold in the tears,
even though everybody was crying for a different reason...

Always,
I've loved you,
I stared at her face,
even if you will never love me back,
why do you think that I sacrificed my life for you...

And as black invaded my vision I heard the words 'I love you too', but I knew it wasn't the same love that I felt for her. At least she was the last person I saw.