Marcus. Marcus, Marcus Marcus. Its weird saying your name now. Or even hearing it. Because for a split second, I get the butterflies I used to get. Its like a flash. Its only for a second. But its an intense second. And I almost want to smile but then I remember that you aren't mine anymore. And I'm facing reality again.
Marcus and Ariana. Ariana and Marcus. That was the way things used to be. But now, its just Marcus. And Ariana. And yeah, sometimes we walk down the hall and we catch each others eye for a millisecond. And its almost like I'm thrown back in time and I feel everything and nothing all at once. But, you aren't the only thing that broke me. There was someone else after you. But I'm not done with your story yet Marcus. So Andrew, please stick around for more.
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If either of you ever find this, please do me a favor and show the other. I want you all to know what I was really thinking. Not your delusions. Because I want you to know that I don't miss you any longer. I miss the things we did. But I don't miss you. But Marcus, what were you thinking? What was going through your head when you invited me over to your house and had her answer the door, in nothing but your T-shirt. And then you showed up, smirking. And I just looked at you, and I couldn't stop the tears. I just couldn't. And then, you grinned at me. And closed the door in my face. And now there you go, parading her around. Smirking at me when you pass by. Do you think it still hurts? It doesn't really. You can have her. I don't want you anymore. I decided I didn't want you right after you shut that door in my face. But I wonder what your last memory of me will be. Will it be my face in tears when you did that to me? Or will it be my face when you were pretending to be in love with me? I won't be around to know. But then again, maybe you won't care.
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It was a pretty cruel way for you to break up with me. And I was lonely so I went looking for something more. And Andrew, this is were you come in. Well, not quite yet but you will soon. After I was the joke at school for about a month, things calmed down. Then one day as I was walking home, a guy catches up to me.
"Hey,"
He was tan, and tall. Blond hair, green eyes. Almost opposite of Marcus. He was dressed like he just had basketball practice, the name of his school stitched onto the front of his jersey.
"Hi. Do I know you?"
I kept walking, and he stayed in step with me.
"I'm Andrew. Now you know me."
I looked at him, but kept on walking.
"I know this is weird but I see you walking by here all the time, and I think you're really pretty and I decided to walk you home."
I clutched my books to my chest and sped up.
"Thanks but no thanks, I can walk by myself. I don't think I'll get lost."
He kept up with me still, no problem. It was probably those long legs of his.
"Look come on, just once? Please? Wait, you don't have a boyfriend do you?"
I stopped to look at him.
He stopped to.
"No, I don't."
I said slowly.
"Then please?"
I sighed, but agreed to let him walk me home. Turned out, he lived a few houses down. We would continue to see each other for a while but Andrew, what you don't know is that I did to you what Marcus did to me.
I was lonely, and when I heard you calling, I ran straight into your arms. I don't think I ever loved you. I mean, yeah sure I liked you. I liked being around you, you made me laugh. But I never loved you. Not the way I loved Marcus. And believe me, I know what it feels like to be told you were never loved by the person you were crazy for.
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Authors Note:
Double update, yay. Thank you for reading my book and commenting, your comments mean a lot. I spent a lot of time into writing this and making this fit so thanks so much for actually reading and voting!!
