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Sometimes, there will actually be a period of time when I don't feel like I'm about to cry or break down. Not that I'm really happy, just more emotionless.
But for some strange reason, I want to cry. I want to fall on the floor and bawl my eyes out. I want to grab anything sharp and make a mess out of my skin. I want to bleed so much that I knock myself unconscious. (Okay maybe I'm getting a little carried away now but it's true.)
I feel more alone if I'm not sad or hurting. It's as if hurting gives me some kind of purpose. And when I'm not, I miss it.
It's crazy because there's times when it's really bad and I just pray for everything to get better and for it all to go away. So then why do I feel lost when it actually does?
I don't understand it... AT ALL.
Comment if you ever feel the same way!
(Just so I know I'm not crazy😘)
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