Bad Boys

allusion

I woke up in a hospital.
I heared a machine that goes like "beep beep beep", those machines that tells your heart rate.
I honestly dont know.
I feel so much pain.
I feel so tired,I'm about to close my eyes.
Slowly closing my eyes, I hear the "beep" machine go faster.
"BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEEP" it just kept going faster and faster.
I'm trying to keep my eyes open to see what's happening
I think...I see nurses and doctors running inside,I cant really see them clearly.
They all look so panic,but why?
I'm not dead...yet? or am I dead?
Am I a spirt right now or what?
wtf?

As my eyes slowly close,I saw someone who came in the room but got kicked out.

"Sir,sorry. You're not allowed to be in here right now"

I wondered who was that man.

Than,my eyes we're officially closed. I saw and heard nothing.

I woke up,lost and confused as I stared at my own body.

"am I a spirit?"
"what's happening?"
"am I dead?"

The doctors and nurses are still working on my body.

"she needs more blood,she's losing so much blood right now"
One of the nurses said with a very long blond hair with some pink dye at the bottom.

I started to cry.
I can't die yet.
I decided to get out of the door,I couldn't hold the handles. Instead I just walked through the walls.

I walked around the hospital and saw Jyp waiting in the waiting room. He looks so worried and tired. I really wanna hug him and tell him how much I missed him and everyone in the company.
I couldn't touched him,I tried and tried. I gave up anyways.
I couldn't stay with him,it's too hard for me. I walked away from him and bumped to someone.

I'm so confused,I thought I can't touch anyone or anything.

I fell backwards on the floor hurting my butt.

"are you okay?" it was a very deep voice
"ya I'm okay"

Than I looked up.

"Lu..L-Luhan?"  I'm very confused but happy to see him. I'm not even sure if it is Luhan. I haven't seen him for years,he kinda looks...he looks a bit older than the last time I saw him.

"Britney? is that you?"
I missed his voice very much. I didn't answer his question but I just hugged him. Hugged him like I never wanna let him go. He hugged me even tighter.

"Luhan that is you!"

Than I finally let go.

Honestly, it was awkward after that. I mean I don't even know what to tell him or ask him. I always wondered what my uncle did to him,but it seems....I don't know, it seems wrong to ask him right away about what happened to him nor about my aunt. I don't want him to look back, but why isn't he even in Heaven? Does Heaven exist or not?

we "sat" down on the chairs in another waiting room far from Jyp.

As the time passed by,we finally started asking questions.

He asked me questions first.
"so umm hows the others?"
"fine"

They're obviously not fine,they still haven't even made a come back and we also just had your funeral. He just kept asking questions like...