Too Late To Noticed

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She was looking down somewhat guiltily and he was looking at her sadly. Both seemed lost for words.

But someone had to speak. Silence was becoming more and more awkward and hard to bear.

Finally he spoke, "I never thought that such situation will come. I mean I should had consider this thing that you might got someone in all these years when we were apart but I just didn't give much thought of it. Maybe because I was too desperate to confess my feelings for you and didn't want to lose you again. I just don't know what to say or what to do now." He said genuinely.

She stared him for few moments and replied.

"Me too, but this situation came and we have to accept it. I swear I didn't have the slightest idea that you also loved me back then else I hadn't run away from you. I am truly sorry for what I did but it's too late now.

When I left you I felt so alone and I can't even blame you. You never said you love me nor I said to you but still when I saw you with someone else it hurt me more than I expected. I was broken so I took the decisions hastily and emotionally. I was very vulnerable then. I left that the city where I met you plus I left that city where I was born. My parents died in the accident when we were in college. When I went back home all their memories crashed into my mind and the heartbreak which I was suffering was not helping the things. So I left that home and that City too.

Then I came here. Got a job and gradually things were becoming better in new environment but still that heartbreak, that pain took its toll on me. I stopped believing in love. I thought 'there is no one who will love me or like me. Hell...There is no such thing as love'. So I became loner until someone came into my life.

He was my new neighbor. He lost his parents too in a young age. We were sharing some common pain and maybe that's why we clicked with each other instantly. We became good friends eventually. I told him about you and you know, what he told me, that I should tell you about my feelings but I denied and besides I even didn't know where you were then. So much time had been passed.

His and mine relationship grew with time. He never judged me by my past, looks or any sort of thing. He accepted me as I am. He gave me shoulder when I needed it the most. He made me smile when I wanted to cry. He did everything which true friend will do for you and I don't know when but I started to fall for him and he did too. One day he asked me for marriage and I said yes. You taught me how it feels when you are in love..You know that butterflies in your tummy, that anxiety, that one glance of each other but he taught me what is love, How to love the other person with all your heart, how to sacrifice, how to share, how to care, how to understand...His love made me believe in love once again. He became my hope, strength, friend, family and love. Because of him I understood how true love can change you from inside out and with all the changes you can still be you. When I was in love with you, I knew the feeling of love but when I fall for him I understood the meaning of love, How to keep and carry your love.

I don't know whether we were meant for each other or not then but it's clear that we both were too late to notice each other's feelings, we were too late to notice our own feelings. Time has change and so are the things. You might be my first love but he is my last and only love. You will always be special for me as you were my past, I loved you but he is my present and future. I don't love you anymore like I used to but still I love you and care for you but only as a friend. I can't give you more than anything but a friendship. That again if you wanted to else we can say goodbye to each other."

She said all the things which she wanted to tell him god knows from when but never got a chance. Today after so many years when he was there in front of her she spilled her heart out. He noticed that she has changed. He felt that change. She was no more that college going shy, clumsy, nerd, silent or socially awkward girl but a strong mature woman with her own thoughts and principles. She changed a lot but still she has her purity and simplicity with which he fell in love with. He recalled her words that 'true love can change you from inside out and with all the changes you can still be you'. It's true, she changed but still he felt that somewhere she is still the same innocent girl who he fell in love with.

But clearly it's too late for both of them, and he understood it.