You went away again
For good this time
I think
At least that is what you told me as you packed your things and headed for the door
The door that led out of our home, out of my life, but certainly not out of my heart
Yes you took your things and went away
But I think in your haste to exchange my embrace for that of another
You accidentally took something that wasn’t really yours to take
You took the very best part of me
The part that loved unconditionally
The part that loved you enough to let you take over my mind and soul
But there were some things you missed
Like these memories of your smile
Your kiss
Your lips
The ghost of your arms around me
How could you think I could live with this
You left your scent on the sheets and pillow on your side of the bed
You left a billion pieces of you plastered throughout the halls of our once happy home
And you, you left me
But I guess that was intentional
Because as much as you like to lie to others, to me, to yourself
You never really wanted me
Not really
Anyone would have done
You would just liked the idea of having someone
And despite the old ring you solemnly slid on to my ring finger during a drunken and seemingly honest declaration of love
I was not the one
So now I guess we are nothing but a love song
A Taylor Swift song
Since she’s oh so well versed in true love gone wrong
But really, Ke$ha said it best
“Young love murdered, that is what this must be”
And that is what this is, was
But it wasn’t the sudden kind of death
It was the slow lingering kind
That takes so long to happen that you just keep holding on to hope that things will turn around
But it never does
And then all you are left with is memories and pain and sadness and regret and shame and tears and heart ache and…
Love songs
But not the sweet kind
Not like the one I dedicated to you on our first anniversary
No
You are… I am left with the anger, sad, beautiful and tragic ones
The ones that make your very soul hurt
I think that is what this all lead up to
The six months of love, joy, fights, heart breaks, laughs, kisses, tears
Were just chords, notes
Of our song
Our disillusioned love song
