It hurt instead

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A very long Time has passed

I haven't heard anything about you

And all the memories my mind have harassed

I've suffered everyday waiting for you

Until one day you finally came

So I fell right in your love

Although really it was just a game

A game where I was manipulated

Too drunk in your eyes

And words sharp with your lies were bladed

A game where at first we both gave a 100%

We both gave each other trust

But then at the end to you nothing is what it meant

A game where you filled my brain with your shit

You grew out roots from my heart

That at the end you carelessly ripped

You ripped me to shreds and left me without a clue

Had me played for so long

Would of never said yes if i only knew

To you did I ever have any significance?

I guess not because you're gone now

And alone your traces I am left to rinse

I have to rinse off all the things that you said

How you loved and me and you missed me

Things that now are all long ago dead

I have to rinse off all the memories of the times we had

Although they used to be so happy and good

To me now they do nothing but bad

I have to rinse off all the songs on my mind

The ones you said to listen to

The ones that were partially making me blind

But now I can see it all

Although It's still not clear to me

Still hurt from that fall

Still think about those moments

And knowing that they will never happen again

Gives my heart and mind severe torments

Still wonder if or I where I went wrong and bad

But finding no answers every time

Leaves me sick and mad

I get sick of the dreams I get at night

They're all so sweet

But they're all so full of bull shit and none are right

You're never coming back and yes its hard to swallow

But Ill just hold on and wait

Maybe itll be better by tomorrow

Now I still don't get what I had done and why I deserved your lies

If it was my love and devotion then id like to apologize

And with my apology id like to thank you

Because along with your lies you gave me truth

And though I still don't know what to do

I learned that I shouldn't put faith in anyone

Because one day they might end up disappointing me

Just like you have done

And of course a lesson that I have learned and that also

Adele had said

'some times it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead'.

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⏰ Last updated: Jul 30, 2013 ⏰

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