What is life (On hold)

Chapter 5

We didn't really tell anyone about our secret kiss, we simply acted like nothing had happened when we walked out to the rest of the lads.

Days had gone and it was getting quite awkward between George and I, we didn't really know how to act. It felt like when we met, all over again except this time we knew each other, really well. It felt like he was taking his distance from me, he finally realised that I was a freak, for real this time. So I did what I usually do when something like this happens, I shut myself out from the rest of the world.

The days ahead of me felt quite uneasy, with no contacting anyone of the boys since I was assuming they didn't want to talk to me either. It was lonely, this was the loneliest I had ever felt in my whole life. Of course I was lonely when my family died but this felt different in someway. Now I felt like before I had friends, lonely, worthless and dumb.

And so it continued. The phone rang all day but I was too afraid to answer. I cried myself to sleep and convinced myself that I was worth all the pain and suffering. Why was life so cruel?

George's POV: When two days had gone and I hadn't got a call from Michelle I assumed that she just wanted to sort all of this out and have some time to think about the kiss. But after a week of unanswered phonecalls I started to get real worried. What if she didn't like me back or that something terrible had happend, if so it would be all my fault, I swear I put too much preasure on her by just kissing her out of nowhere.

I continued calling her day after day. Still no answer. The rest of the lads were just as worried when I told them about the current situation. So finally I decided to go home to her. I needed to know that she was safe, this is the first girl I have fancied or felt really close to in a very long time and I don't want to mess things up, which I may already have done.

Back to Michelle's POV: I hadn't gone out for a week and the food was running out, but what did I care? I was going to die eventually anyways.

This peculiar day it was sunny outside, I felt the sun shine on my back making it all warm and nice. It made me want to go outside, maybe just for a little bit, nothing bad could happen if I was out for 1 hour maximum? After taking a short cold shower I decided to head out for a little bit.

I opened the door and there stood George. He looked exhausted, how long had he been there?

He looked up at me, his eyes expressing his feelings for him which looked like worry and confusion while his body language was stiff and cold. My whole body stiffened at the sight of him, I couldn't move so we just stood there looking at each other. We moved closer and closer, until there was no space between our bodies. The heat from his body radiating to my body making it feel like we were one. We hugged and I gently put my head on his shoulder, hearing every breath he took. And I started crying.

He didn't back off or run away it just made him hug me tighter. It felt like I cried forever, all of my problems just disapeared with my tears, out and away. When the tears ran dry I looked up at him. With a trembling voice I asked

"Why are you here? I thought you wanted to take distance from a freak like me."

I didn't take him very long to answer and for the first time in a week I heard his silky smooth voice as it said

"I will never take distance from you, I don't think I could even if I wanted because my heart doesn't agree on that" He smiled shyly showing his half crooked teeth which made me melt on the inside while my body remained neutral.

"Then why did you ignore me after the kiss?, I thought you liked me?"

"I do like you, I like you a lot Michelle, I didn't ignore you I just simply thought you wanted to think about it, sort things out ya know?"

"Oh." I breathed out quietly. This was all my fault, he just wanted me to have my space to think, what a gentleman. After sorting everything out in my mind I kissed him, he was surprised at first but he got into it and it soon became a soft, passionate kiss and a lot better than the first one. He smiled into the kiss and so did I.

We eventually pulled away for more air and he said

"Well so you want to be my lady?"

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A/N: I won't even say I'm sorry because I'm just very lazy. I can't change that, but I will update when I feel like I've gotten some inspiration.