The questions started as soon as the car door was shut.
"What just happened?!"
I bury my head in my hands as Zayn starts the car.
My hands were shaking and my face was still flushed.
"Are you going to talk, or are you mute ?"
I sat up quickly and my eyes darted to Zayn.
"Damn it, Zayn. I don't know what happened!! I fell in way to deep and I guess I got caught up in the moment..."
Zayn nodded and said hesitantly, "You know, maybe it was you actually just have a bit of feelings for him, Mace. Nothing is wrong with that."
I stared at Zayn not knowing what to say.
"I'm your best friend. I've always been their for you. I'm here for you now..."
I sighed and said, "I'm scared."
He gave me a confused expression urging me to go on.
"I think I have feelings for him..."
Zayn nodded and simply said, "I know."
I threw my hands up as I did minutes before and exclaimed, "Then why were you trying to get it out of me so much?!"
"Because I just wanted to hear you say it."
I shook my head hating my best friend and loving him at the same time.
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We got out of Zayns car and hurried inside because it was starting to rain.
"Zayn, what happens if I really started to like him?
I it was a silly question, but I asked him it anyway.
"I know how you are with people. I get you don't want to let anyone in, I get it. But I really think Niall is different. I haven't ever seen you like how you are when you're near him."
We sit on the couch and I lean against Zayn, my back to his chest.
"You smile more, you laugh like a donut and you just seem happier."
"What If I fall for him but he doesn't fall too?"
Moments of silence pass as Zayn thinks of what to say. I can feel the constant beating of his heart.
"I think he has already fallen. When you got up after kissing him you should have seen his face, Mace. Priceless. The kid does have feelings for you. I'm surprised you didn't notice."
I grab the remote and think about what Zayn had told me. Interrupting my thoughts Zayn tell me, "Here's the thing. An I'm only telling you this because I love you to death. If, and I said "if" so don't get defensive. If you two to become a couple, the biggest problem the two of you would have is you pushing him away."
I stiffen and realize he's right. I pushed people away in life because I get too afraid they might leave me. I tried to push Zayn away, but he came right back.
"You push people away. And you know you do, so if you start to really care for Niall , you're going to have to find a way to trust that he won't leave you. I've known Niall a while, he won't leave you. When he falls, he falls with his entire heart. He falls hard."
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