Trust me... //brooklyn beckham fanfiction//

CHAPTER 29

CHAPTER 29
ANGIE'S P.O.V
February 14, 2016, Valentine's Day. Today I'm doing a concert with some of my close friends, the bomb digz. This is my first time singing in front of a bunch of people.

Right now, I'm putting my outfit and I'm so nervous to open the show. The last time I was in an event it was with Brooklyn...

"You got this. C'mon don't mess this up." I say to myself while walking around my dressing room

"Ahhh! OH MY GOD! Why do I always get freaking panic attacks!" I scream while sitting down in front of my mirror and putting my head down.

"Can I come in?" Kevin says while opening the door

"Um. Sure" I say while turning around and fake smiling

"Are you okay?" He ask while coming closer to me.

"I don't know. I always get anxious during events and the fact that so many people are here for me makes me scared that I'll let them down." I say while looking down

"Come here." He says while he opens his arms for a hug

"I know it's hard for you. But don't worry, that feeling will go away. Think of all the people that love you for no matter what happens. We are here for you."

"Thank you." I say while breaking the hug

"Now c'mon. Only 5 minutes till the show starts." He says while leaving.

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"Ladies and gentlemen, ANGIE WINTER!"
(Did I ever gave Angie a last name?? Update: nvm I went all the way to chapter 2 to find out her last name is winter.lol.)

*something sweet by Madison beer start playing*

"See you looking at me...." I start singing
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"I know I know you know
It's gonna be something sweet" the song ends

"Thank you all so much for coming. Omg this is incredible" I say to the crowd while trying to catch my breath

"Okay, so the next song is an original. So I hope you guys like it"

*i hate you I love you by gnash start playing*

"Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her"

My eyes started getting watery

"I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we coulda been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts, and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her"

I start crying

"All alone I watch you watch her
Like-- she's the only girl you've-- ever se--en"

I start crying, I put the mic away from my mouth and cover my mouth.
I turn around and I see Daniel coming to the stage and hugging me.

"C'mon you got this" he whispers in my ear. Then he leaves the stage

"You don't care u never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me"

I try to sing while tears fall down my faces

"I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her"

I cover my face right when I end the song.

"I'm so sorry guys. I'm--- I -- umm--I'm so sorry." I say trying to smile

"We love you Angie!" I heard the crowd say

"I love you all so much!
Okay. Let me stop being a crybaby, and let's get hype!" I say while whipping tears off my face and getting in position

*do it again by pia Mia starts playing*

"Everybody put your hands up for THE BOMB DIGZ!" I scream and they come to the stage

"Bye, baby, they ain't fly, baby" they start singing.
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"Let's do it again" I end the song

Then they all give me a group hug

"Ladies and gentlemen, ANGIE WINTER!" Davin says

I thank the crowd and leave the stage for the bomb digz.