Why do things always end up like this?

Part 9

What had happened? I was so confused. Specially when Kiku pulled me up and walked me to a room like I was a new trophy. But the worse part was... I let him....

He walked me into a spare bedroom that had an open door, then shoved me in and followed, closing the door behind us. He pushed me on the bed and climbed on top of me, kissing and sucking on my neck. I let out a small moan when he found my sweet spot, and slowly wrapped my arms around his shoulders as he continued.

Honestly, this felt horrible. I thought it would feel good, specially since it was Kiku. I had the biggest crush on him only a few decades ago... Why did I feel disgusted now?

I let him continue though, wanting it to feel less like a guilty pleasure. Why did I feel so bad? It wasn't like I was committed to a relationship... So why was I like this?

"Kiku stop aru." I moaned out pressing a knee into his chest to break away.

He frowned. "What is it Yao-san?"

"I... Can't do this... I'm sorry..."

He hesitated, then nodded and got off, rubbing the back of his neck. "I... I agree. We're too drunk to do this. I mean, we haven't thought this out.."

I wasn't drunk, I knew I wasn't. I had yet to drink, but I nodded my head in agreement. If it got me out of this, then I'd fake being drunk all night long.

We sat there for a second, awkward, then finally Kiku stood up and attempted to clean himself up some, then walked out of the room. I sat a bit longer inside, trying to collect my thoughts. Why did I do that? That was a perfect ticket away from this crush... Why did I mess that chance up?

I sighed and stood up, straightened my clothes out, then walked out of the room. The first thing I saw was Antonio carrying a very pissed Lovino down the hall. I was nearly knocked out of the way as they ran in the now open room. Boy was this place messed up...