My ways that I have

Lessons.

Your POV

You start thinking of what happened with Sebastian. Your heart starts beating fast as you place your hands on your chest. You feel a blush creep up onto your cheeks as you look at the floor.

What exactly did happen?

You think as you take your hands from your chest, and grab the sides of the nightgown.

"Something wrong?"

Ciel asks not looking at you.

"N-no..."

You quietly say as you shake your head.

"I..um.."

You say as you dash to the stairs to get to your room. You quickly, but quietly, shut the door behind you and sink onto the floor next to it.

"If I was so embarrassed by it...then, why would I be okay if, it happened again..?"

You say to yourself quietly, as you stand and grab a rose from the nightstand next to your bed. You twirl it in your fingertips, watching as it spins. You stop spinning it and touch one of the petals, before you know it, the flower dies in your hands.

Must be a demon thing....I need to learn to control this..

You think to yourself, as you look at the dead rose. You place it back on the nightstand and splay yourself out on your bed out of exhaustion. You think of Sebastian teaching you to control the powers that came along with the deal you made.

"..don't make a contract with anyone .."

You quote Sebastian in your mind as you go onto your side. You go over to the door where another vase of flowers is. You hear a knock at the door.

"Oh!"

The sudden noise scares you, you look in the mirror to see your eyes have gone red.

So, by my blood pressure going up from fright. I go into demon mode..

You think as you lift away your hair to see your eyes.

"Lady y/n?"

You hear the knocking again. You stumble over a footstool as you make your way towards the door. You open it with your hand accidentally. You lay on the floor, face-down with one leg still on the stool.

"Come in..."

You moan as you drop your foot off the footstool. Sebastian comes in with a candle in his hands, you lift up your head to look out of the door.

Ciel must have gone to sleep..

You think as you see all of the lights are out.

"I was wanting to talk to you.."

He says as he picks your body up from the floor, and sits you up on the footstool.

"My my...such a mess."

He says as he looks around your room. He makes a small face of disapproval, and then starts picking things up. You just look at him with a confused face, then you sit upright on the footstool.

"S-Seba- Seb-sama..."

You say, remembering his nickname.

"Yes, my flower?"

He says as he turns around to look at you.

"You said you needed to talk.."

You get butterflies in your stomach as you say that for some strange reason.

"Oh, yes.."

He says as he sits on the stool next to you.

"I need to ask you some questions..."

As he says that, the lights turn out.

"S-Seb-sama?"

You say as you look around in the darkness, you don't dare move. You look at the mirror, to see red eyes staring back at you. This makes your heart jump for a few seconds, until you realize that the 'red eyes' are yours staring at you. You take a small breath of relief, then search for Sebastian's eyes in the dark. You feel something pick you up and then slam you against the wall. You look to see Sebastian's red eyes glaring at you. You gulp, and try not to be afraid. You feel him move closer, as his breath grazes your shoulder.

"Did you really mean that?"

He says in a seductive tone. You get chills down your spine as he kisses your shoulder. He moves up and kisses your neck. You feel a slight gasp escape your lips, as you stand there pinned against the wall, terrified. You slightly move your wrist from under Sebastian's grip. You hear a breath escape from his mouth. You see his white teeth form a smirk. He picks you up over his shoulder and throws you onto the bed. You wish you could disappear as his face gets closer to yours. The lights turn on all of the sudden. Sebastian's smirk fades and he becomes his usual collected self as he gets away from the bed.

"If you don't want those things to happen, then don't say things like that."

He says as he looks into your eyes. You make a small confused face as he gazes at you.

"I don't understand.."

"Don't you remember your own words?"

You think back, then you remember talking to yourself.

"If I was so embarrassed by it...then, why would I be okay if, it happened again?"

"Exactly."

You look at the blanket that's twisted around your foot.

"H-how long were you at the door for?.."

You say as you feel watched.

"Long enough."

You accept his quick answer.

"You were not okay with that just now. So, why say things like that?"

He says as you look at your feet, ashamed of saying that.

"I-I...I don't know.."

You say as tears form in your eyes. Sebastian's eyebrows drop, and he makes his way over to you. You look at the watch in his coat, as he sets himself down next to you. You take a shaky breath, and try to talk.

"Y-y-you r-really scared m-me...."

You manage to get out under a whisper. He pulls you onto his chest and hugs you.

"That's the main point, it's scary. So, don't say things like that from now on."

You nod as the tears soak into his shirt. You gaze in the mirror as you turn your head, still against Sebastian's chest. And you see in the mirror, two red eyes, shining back at you.